Poetry Hour

2009-08-03T15:51:00.001-07:00

That Feeling

To touch hope is permanent
It's all okay when you can dream
I don't want to
But I have to
Leave it all up in the air

When pain comes in waves
And then slips away
you wish it never came
Was not the answer

This is the part
where you should start
To feel better
We're all running out of time
waiting in line
hoping to get a glimpse of it all

And I know that tonight
I'll be thinking it might
Be the last time
I've built up this collection of
Souvenirs from years
of missed connections
I'm giving it all away
So here's a ripped up picture
Here's an unused ticket from the show
the play
the game

Keeping my steps in time
Counting on the wonder ahead
I leave the pain behind
All the big words
stop making sense
when I get that feeling

I wake up alone
Like a bird that has flown
Into something
I don't understand
Don't know what I'm doing
But I got that feeling and
It's pushing and pulling.

2008-04-21T22:04:00.000-07:00

Born to Bleed

I couldn't close my eyes,
I stayed up all night
I thought of promises
that broke me down to my knees
I take no prisoners
I have no demands

Too many unanswered questions, so many times
Most times the finger points at me
In my confusion, I might slip and cross the line
you can't help me it's in my soul
pray for mercy, nowhere else to go

Swimming hard and fast
against the fire
lost in a flood
of ancient heat
I just know it, I can feel it
there's something in the air
maybe the moon just gave up and fell
something's not quite right
my heart feels so empty
my mind's so full of doubt

Sometimes I feel I was born to be in pain
sometimes I feel I was born to die of need
I ache at the thought of another day like this
I can't shake the feeling that I'm
born to bleed

Love likes to play with me
it drives me wild
it hurts me really deep
and I don't know why
I see the trouble
and I feel the danger
Is my heart beating for a heartless stranger?

I'm freezing cold
and its getting colder
I'm losing hope
I can't wait no longer
If I could read everyone’s mind
I wouldn't come around here no more

You better know that I'm losing my head
And where I go love will never come back
Well you've watched the sun set on the seven seas
dined in the company of killers and queens
you think there isn't much that you haven't done
you've tasted everything that can turn you on
there used to be innocence in your eyes
Till you realized you were born to bleed.

2007-03-12T23:18:00.000-07:00

I Can't Understand

I’m dying and no one knows my pain
They assume life treats us all the same
It’s hard to find friends when your best friend is gone
It’s hard to play the game of life
When you can’t move on

.
Deep inside I know poison
And I know I am that to her
But I don’t know how to let it go
I didn’t want it to end
Fuck this, I thought she was the one

I held on to her for so long

.
I Remember when we first met
We could not keep apart
Now she left me and never gave back my heart
How am I supposed to move on
This shit hurts and no one understands

When I try to ask for help

They tell me that I am wrong

They say my feelings are confusing me

That I am better off alone

My thoughts have become a clog in my lungs

And I no longer can breathe
If I am supposed to be happier
Then When will it begin

.
I think about her so much
I want to hold her again
I need her voice in my ears
I want to hold her hands
She left me for other man

Her mom told me the truth

I cant believe she left me for good

.
she left me and never came back
I don’t blame her
But don’t blame me if I can’t understand
All I wanted was to hold her to the end

And all along I thought I was her man

But She never believed in me