Frustration Clouds

Dead inside eyes
As cold as ice
This pain within
I can't deny

This time emotions pouring over
Anger
Hate
Joy and bliss
At times nothing I know
Compares to this
And I don't know
which way to turn
Is there a way
I never learned

They say it's best
To have loved and Lost
Than never
To have truly loved At all

To try to hold
Touch the sun and fall
To win the Fight
But lose the wars

Overwhelmed
Gasp for breath
Drowning in my own restraints
My frustration clouds
A constant echo

Anger
Is all that’s left inside of me
You’re Reflection
Pure deception
Truth and Consequence
You don't get to push
Come to shove
You're full of shit
And filled with lies.

The wind

Love has taken me on a journey
And it wont be there till the end
Dreams are an uphill struggle
On that I can depend

I promised me a dream
With roses round the door
There's nothing I want more

Everytime I dream of change

Pain comes dressed like hope

walking through the door
But I won’t dream no more.

If the pain starts falling
who will protect you?
If you find yourself struggling
Who will understand you?

You'll always kept the magic
The unstable love and care
And when the light bulb
Needed change
I never handed you the chair

And we had plans
When we get tired of the city
we find a country home
I will sell my sport card collection
And your extra clothes
God know you had a lot of those
And go get us a loan.

You would be
my sympathetic lover
And won't steal
From my wallet
You wouldn’t forsake me
Your family wouldn’t hate me
You'll be strong
And you'll turn me on
You'll be true
And be faithful too
But I had my doubts
It has been long
I’m wishing for rain
Nothing but the wind ever came.

Confused

There is mass
Confusion in the forest
Some breath assured pints
Full of beautiful grace
As I watch them celebrate
Knowing nothing changed

I love your depression
I am here
To share the despair
We must move
Forward
And I say
Let’s not go back
Once we were
Brave explorers
But this trail
Is a worn-out track

We dive into disease
We dive deep
Hold your breath
Let it sink

We dive into devotion
Through all emotions
Soldiers of perfection
Straight across hell

There's a million things
I will never know
There’s a million things
I should have never seen
The window's Close now
As the winter settles in
No one to show me
No one to help me begin.

I Can’t Feel.

Have you ever been so lost?
Even though
You know the way
Another hope
Waiting for someone
To give you
Reasons to stay.

I'm out!
On my own vision
Face down
In the wrong position
Getting high
But feeling so low

Caught in the eye
Of life’s hurricane
slowly watching myself
Fade away

So sick of my poetry
Pulling me down
Can't find the way
Cause the way is gone

Is there a light
At the end of the road
Is there hope
Left for a dying soul
I'm pushing everyone away
'Cause I can't feel

Where will I meet my fate?
I was cultivated to hate
I wake up
it's a bad dream
No one on my side
I was searching
for something
to hold me close
at nights.

In my world of travels
Over every town
up and down the line
detached from familiar ground
I only whispered peace
And when no one listened
I changed my vision
And now I can’t feel love again.