A way to you

I need your help today.
I feel like I need,
to change the ways,
that makes me,
so different then you.

I want to figure me out
Now aint that a bitch
the constant pain
sent into my life
to help me grow
in body, mind and spirit
to help me develop
the special gifts
I have within my soul

no matter what
I will dream
I can never let go
But I also want
to free my thoughts
to follow my own paths
bring my loving wisdom
to the World.

Help me embrace hope
without clutching,
to support love
without suffocating
to correct fear
without crushing.

And help me
to live joyfully
playfully
so we all can see
our life in me
and Find a way to you.

Drowning in the Lonely

Once again
I’m standing' here crying out
Energy gone
My soul dying out
Cool summer night breeze
Slow motion daylight

Dad always told me
About life
Life never plays to be nice
A tortured soul
Emotional wounds
Too large to heal

Friendship has lost its meaning
Save yourself don't save me
save the one you may be

In between
What I find is pleasing
With one exception
Love is so confusing
There’s no peace of mind
Adorable illusion
I cannot hide
I can't see clear
My head is pounding harder
And I got gang load of fear

I've been trying for years
To think of a way
To find the words to make it last
Sometimes the stunts that I pull
Don't even make sense

So close to nothing
What are the chances
That we would collide
And fate is the one thing
The strongest of us can't fight

But I know in a way
When I'm drowning in the lonely
I can almost taste you
And I don't want to be
Left here all my life.

That Feeling

To touch hope is permanent
It's all okay when you can dream
I don't want to
But I have to
Leave it all up in the air

When pain comes in waves
And then slips away
you wish it never came
Was not the answer

This is the part
where you should start
To feel better
We're all running out of time
waiting in line
hoping to get a glimpse of it all

And I know that tonight
I'll be thinking it might
Be the last time
I've built up this collection of
Souvenirs from years
of missed connections
I'm giving it all away
So here's a ripped up picture
Here's an unused ticket from the show
the play
the game

Keeping my steps in time
Counting on the wonder ahead
I leave the pain behind
All the big words
stop making sense
when I get that feeling

I wake up alone
Like a bird that has flown
Into something
I don't understand
Don't know what I'm doing
But I got that feeling and
It's pushing and pulling.