Recession

Come follow me
Ruined fantasy
Across American deserts I flock
Mad sour candy

flank my taste buds
We’ll change all seasons
with our gasoline cars.

All ships of sense sank in the ocean
Bush causes chaos still in motion
Our culture vulture such a lost cause
I'll steal you from the wrong side
If you only let me kill, as you watch.

We'll travel to infinity
But your tears leave trails of fog
Those crippled thoughts
that I can not fix
Hope slips through time
but It wont be missed
another night worrying
about the Next day

Running down the street I know
All too well and it feels like
I've been put under a spell
And I've tried hard to break it
to make it
But since the day this poison went in me
Broke into my life and held me guilty
Now I can't settle down to figure
what’s? ,what?
Somehow I got lost
before I tried.

On the west side of town
where the mild winds always blow.
Peoples faces are hard to see
behind all the flashy things
And on the South side of town
the bad ones are carrying guns.
They are all the screaming and swearing,
asking for education.

The city is full of lonely hearts.
And all the gutters are filled
with broken promise
On the North side of town
they say the streets are lined with gold.
But all the peoples tongues
are turning black from the lies they told.
On the East side of town
you can hear someone’s baby crying.
No job to pay for her food
No way to explain it
The city is full of struggling folks
And all the souls are filled
with broken thoughts.
Waiting for economy to pick up.

so they dont have to loose their house.

Life Won't Last

She's waiting to fall apart
Blind to how bad things are
And I know now
She won't last

Fighting herself again
Ice melting like candle wax
She says that she'll be right back
It's all so sad
She came to the end of the road
just the way these things go
Another bleeding bird confused
with her broken wings

Good days, bad days,
We all had a few of each
Same old story
This life makes no sense
And we all worry

Nothing's in its place,
nothing's certain anymore,
Birds fly, trees sway
why can't I be like that?
Happy knowing what I am….
But truth has been obscured,
I am human thus I’m always wanting more

Oh, the world is a mysterious place
they say it's on our side,
But I wonder, is there comfort in those mountains up high
this life was in the poems you gave me,
Which I read, disbelieving
thinking poets are depressed

I imagined life had purpose
and I'd something good to give,
Now, I've got hundred things lined up for a shelf,
but no shelf to line them with
I don't know why you're showing me the sky,
each time I ask you why?
You say you see heaven,
I see hell, but I still want to try.

this road is long,
this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
"There's nothing you cannot do?"
Well, I've seen some things
but not all of them came true.
And I know now this life wont last

So I don't want to be the last,
I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts
And I don't want to be the worst

I'm learning to breathe,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
And I know a man who lost hope
This is the way he chooses to describe life,
If I think too much
I find there's just a hole
And this life wont last anymore.

Happy At Last

I thought you were playing
When you said you were ready
I know you really didn’t mean it
When you said you feel unsteady.

You just want to leave it
While drinking and smoking to kill it
So I didn’t really pay no attention
I thought things would just happen

I drove pass your house
And I left with the vision
Trying to figure my own life
Struggling premonition

On the way out to figure this shit
I noticed cops rolling pass
Something told me turn around
Normally I wouldn’t consider
But I got this deep feeling
To follow them back

What the fuck just happen
I just left this place
Start walking
Asking what is this?
Then I saw his mama crying
Father, Holding her tears
Yellow tapes surrounding their Fears

Then it finally hit me
I never thought I ever see
Nothing in life prepared me for this

minutes ago i was there
His life had a date with death

and he screamed it to me!!
Another soul no longer breathing

I took this on me

Fucked up to see him in this position
All his life he struggle
Nothing but trouble
And the ending came
Like the way he always said
“Happy At last"

Now we all wait for our time to pass.

I Just Move on..

I Don't want to hear about love anymore
I don't want to talk about how I feel
I don't really want to be me no more

I've been looking for something
Something I've never seen
We're all looking for something
Something we want to be
I tried to get grip on life
But the harder I tried
The farther it slipped

When the streets are flooded with fever
It's a holiday of the chills
We're coming closer now to the truth
There's not a cloud in the sky
And today I have no cares
Today And tomorrow
I’ll be just a bit more aware
And tomorrow I forget I care.

Its been a long night
As I walk pass the homeless man
”Hey man!!”
I hear the drunk yelling at me
”Read another one of those heartbreak poems,
Tell another story how things go wrong,
And they never get back,
My life is a painful stack,
Take that shit back!!
You don't want to be me
when it all goes wrong
You don't want to see me
when I go down”

I'm a little confused
the drunk sounds like he had a life time of abuse
And yet I understand his words
I never thought I could relate
And all along we all the same

I can't stand what I'm starting to be
I can't stand the people
that I'm starting to need
There's so much now
That can go wrong
too much emotions running wild

Everybody says I go away too long
Everybody wants to tell me what went wrong
unless you believe that they're right
The tears will never stop
I watch the people walk away
My eyes reflected the pain
from the stained glass windowpane
And there is no black or white
But still, I just move on

I’m never going to be the same
from this moment I shall rise
to a height only gained by a compromise
share the glimpse of my sacrifice

I’m not running to run away
I’m just wasting away the day
Does it show?
I’ll be laughing until my tears run dry
And the silence fills the air with my smile
We'll talk about all the years
And about how we've been friends

I see no need to go through the same situation
Always so complicated with these thoughts
So I got to move on

I know nothing about Life
This is getting way out of hand
Falling down, unable to stand
Emotions I've chosen to ignore
Do I know what I'm looking for?
I'm a little tired, I'm going to leave it inside
I think it's time for a change
So I will find a way to move on.