Hope vs. Age

This world lights up the show
But its nothing I haven’t seen before
I rather wake up and see the lies
Than play ignore and act surprised

Im just chasing time again
Far away from all the promises
I cant find thoughts that worked
Nor can I fix all the broken dreams

Time seems to pass
As it glides down the river of hope
But I never wait for it again
its never been there
when I need it
And I have no trust for hope

Do you remember the days?
How about the end of the good times?
Beautiful world
you are just confusing me again
Thought I was done
Figured it out, till you came again
Damn you hope

Sometimes its hard to believe
That I still can breath
When will it ever get clear
You cant say I never tried
Sometimes I wish
life just stop for a second or two
So I could catch up

With age I got older
I forgot how to laugh
I realized the value of money
And I lost the meaning of life.