The Next Big Thing

Music today isn't the way it's supposed to be
yet it plays all day on the radio
You like what you're told
And if you know what's good then you'll agree

If someone comes to tell you who you are
Someone to tell you who to be
Someone to show you what you see
You tell them NO, I’m the next big thing

You go to the store and
It's the same brands stacked on each other
You've heard it before but its all on the cover
How low can you go?
To be the next big thing?
The Answer is In The Question

Wonder and complete surprise
It's all seen through blind eyes
Tired, lonely and afraid
Every card's been played

So where do we go?
Love, hate, life and certain death
All in just one breath
Mixed up, straight down, opened, closed down
Created, then unwound
And this is true I've got to see life in another way
To be the next big thing
I must make a change in me

I might be a fool to think
that I can change this world
I'm pretty foolish anyway
I've been planning to bring humanity back
And so far things have gone my way
Some would say tomorrow

is just one step closer to death
I'd say tomorrow is just one step closer to life
And understanding and to know

it's going to be alright

So in conclusion

have I made my decisions clear?
With every passing moment of my life this year
Well not exactly

so that's what I am going to change

Would it be right to say

that no one ever truly listens?
Or takes the time

to understand what something means
Without opinion, bias, without a one-track mind
What can be done

to change a habit born in our minds?
First step to the truth is to take

the lost out of our eyes
And then to wonder, enjoy life
maybe even give it a try
The next big thing

is waiting inside of me

and cant wait to come out.

Peace in Mind

Got a bad record with life
I can't cross state of minds
First on the bad list
And last on every try
Looking for a scapegoat
Long past due
im ready to make it
Walking down the tries
Staring straight at problems
And give it all I got
I run outside at nights and
I hear myself screaming
where do I hide?
And all I get for a reply
is a gentle voice
screaming back
hurry inside
He said, she said...
No I didn’t know
go home without saying bye
And you know I won't let it go
Well I remember those nights
Like yesterday
And I remember my loneliness
As she dragged it away
A whole lot of memories...
yours and mine
And all I asks for
is a peace in mind.

The only one left standing

Good morning it's a warm Day
says the guy on the radio…
Feels like a good day in every way

With my Possum breath
Tired tales, tired eyes
Tired bones, tired thighs
Dreams shot as I ran through the night
Deep sleep to lonely drums

Things are all right
My mind's a miss
My smile is toxic, my gait is fix
And I say as one man to another
The only thing I hope to never see
Is another man like me
Playing me
Just like me

I got a hole in my heart the size of a truck
It won't be filled by a one night fuck
Slurping and squeezing ain't it just my luck
The devil tried to fill me up
but my down was high
As the sky is up
that just is life

They're mating like apes in the zoo
One for all and one for you
Wouldn't it just be lovely
Another useless night in bed
by the Los Angeles River
The rollerblades giving head

You know me I use to dance
Move my body in to a trance
I'm the only one left standing
To the beat with no flow
You know me I like to drink
And carry on Over to 5 A.M.
Sun and the moon is shining

Sitting on a curb I throw a rock
At the passing meat market truck
It's just my luck
I'm the only one left standing

Another useless night chasing dreams
Pass by the River as they are getting head
Don't know how I'm still here
Strong and fearless in the outside air
I'm the only one left standing
I'm the only one

Open Mind

I am seeing tunnel vision

in a world that's dark and cold,
I cannot believe how much I've changed
And I get wiser as I get old
And I question trust with every soul
I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight,
I cannot believe I lost control of fate,
I need forgiveness from the people I truly care
I need support behind my back
To give me strength when I am scared

Contradiction's the way of life
In your mirror's reflection
What you don't like about you
is what you hate in life
You should see through others eyes…
Sometimes I get so frustrated
Haunting visions in the back of my mind

I try to make an impact
Through truth as well as poetry
I overcome thoughts and leave an etched memory,
It's my gift my intentions, are only well
Always in the correct way, you can tell

but you have to see it

to believe it
An open mind is hard to find

Painful Memories

Need for more mode shift
Slip in one more stick shift
Pack your bags then burn the memories

.
More or less the same story
the pain, then blame someone else
You shove it in
and then you pull it out
You lift the lid
and watch it spill out.

Once written in the stars
A pathway set in stone
Like a candle in the night
To guide your way back home
Then somewhere in your memory
It's daring you to see
what it is that's written in the stars…

The prophecy fulfills
The dream that never dies
A shooting star lights up the sky
while the earth stands still
And somehow we lose sight
while following the car in front of our eyes

In search of painful memories
So I can figure where I stand
A timeless and forgotten place
The moon and sun in endless chase
Each in quiet surrender
As the other reigns the sky…

The midnight hour begins to laugh
A summer evening's filled with noise
The Memories are getting crazy
As a storm in me begins to rise…

Painful memories were the times that came
In a thunder that cause me pain
Nothing ever could contain
The rising of the storm…

In the wings of agony
Darkened waves fill the hate
Wild winds of warning
Echo through my tears

Memories seems to come from everywhere
Welcome to the dragons lair

as my hair turns to grey

Hell can have no fury
Like a painful Day.

CoNtRoL this life
*************
Time, where did you go
Why did you leave me behind
Wait, don’t go so fast
I’m missing the moments as they pass

.
Now I’ve looked in the mirror
Like they said
And the world’s getting clearer
But wait for me this time
I’m down on my luck
I’m begging for all your time
But to the world I’m just an illusion

I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I want to do is be me
I don’t know why I was so afraid
All the time
Memories seemed to bother me
My whole life

.
I don’t know why I was so lost
Such a waste of time
Now I’m going to make this moment mine
I shouldn’t have wasted those days
But I still don’t know who I’m trying to be
All those dreams are gone
And new ones are hard to find
Oh and there’s always something
Or somebody right behind
Take a second to think about it
And its gone

.
Well we’re not meant to be everything
but the race is on
It feels like I’m out here on my own
the only thing keeping me happy Is my girl
Please pick up the phone

when I call
I’m hiding from the cold
Inside the dark silent room
You left me all alone

and went back home
.
I’m deep inside my soul
But I can’t find my way
I’m hiding from the moment
That makes everything alright
I run away from it all
But can’t turn the page
I knew it all along
Its hard for me to change
Now I’m floating endlessly
Unpacking all my dreams
Funny how we worry
We can’t control this life.

Inner self

my mind has been shut down
my friends have let me down
what is the reason
there's millions of lies

.

single me out
tear off my front
make me expose what I conceal
life is a bullet
the bloodstains prove it
it's tearing through you and me
you try to hide
but it finds you

.

now I could explain everything
but you know it well
you cursed the fire
now we all in hell
blindfold me now
spin me around
kicking me down
when Im on top of it all

.

today I feel blue
my head is in the clouds
God help me separate it all
my soul from my heart
my fears from my dreams
my tears from my smile
my pain from my joy

.

fed-up ,tired
sick and twisted
one-man army
I’m enlisted
trust yourself
trust no one else

.

in a daze
these days go by
faster and faster I speed through life
now I’ve got to take control
of my mental and my physical
never sheltered from life's hard storms
sometimes it gets cold but it also gets warm

.

searching and finding the truth inside
I was born with nothing
I’ll die with everything
I’ve come to a point
where I just don't give a fuck
my skin is thick
thick and calloused
I’m ready to fight this fight….

The END

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Journalists, Politicians and Women,
Anyone who has a voice and would speak
Has either been silenced or been threatened

Their voices become reluctant and meek
As Bush becomes supreme
Religion forcing its’ will on the weak,

As the media tells them what to think.

Brotherly love is lost and so it seems
Everything is sacrificed for power.
Beneath the surface resentment still grows,

As humanity goes farther.

So the Republicans will be stronger.
As the world see their free speech banned
And the Bush regime turns to rape and torture

So that now blood and fear will rule the land.
Freedom’s lost to any passing man
Since it was only written in the sand

the end will only end.

She Cries..

.

And she cries, when the rain begins to fall
and she hides, from the shadows on the wall,
cause she knows, there is nothing she can do
to make her family understand her love

She lives for him,
he is her only sin,
she prays to God,
that things would change
And she drives to his house most every day
and she lies to them so she could stay

and she begs him to stop his way

She has a dream

she wants it to come true,
she's living in a house

with nowhere point of view,
no, nobody knows what she's been through,
she'll do anything he wants her to,
There's not really much else she can do.
and she cries...and she cries...and she cries.

.

Hunger

Everything right is wrong again
Just like in the busy city
All the people suffering
the cars kept driving
And nobody would stop to save a soul

Wake me when it's over, touch my face
Tell me hunger has been erased
Don't you want to know the reason
Why some children suffer
Don't you get the feeling
Its time to end world hunger

Everything that's wrong is right again
We have overcome with regards to no one
overcame but not before the damage is done
The healing doesn't stop the feeling
The feeling does not feed the children

Every movement false, every four is waltz again
Every five and dime's been gained and spent
Tell me how many souls can we feed my friend
Draw the line dividing laugh and scream
You know everything that I know ,so I know
You've heard the voice that makes the silent laugh
And now the poem is over
and poverty still grows