CRazY

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I like to run in the rain
Without a rain jacket
Nor an umbrella to cover me from getting wet
But lately it's not the same
When everything has changed
And nothing seems crazy anymore.

But while your still near
And you still Have a chance
a hope appears
wanting to dance
They’ll try anything.
And they'll say all the things
that you wanted to hear...
But the words in my heart
Are better left unsaid.

To lie like the ghosts beneath my fears...
I go crazy but I've got nothing left to try
you're on your own tonight
I hear a whisper
You can't take back
Half of what you give
And you won't remember
Half the life you've lived.
But while you're still here,
I'll do anything
as long as you know
I’m crazy for life.

The Fire Inside of me..

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There is a fire,
These dreams that pass me by,
The salvation I desire,
Keeps making me try
'Cause I need to recognize my state,
For time and time again,
So let it be known,
For what I believe in,
I can see no reason,
For freedom to fade,
'Cause this life is as rare as it gets
I can't breathe through this mask,

I want out
So breathe on, little sister, Freedom

From this warm cell,
Lets just call it home
Testify or tell,
at times like this

it can only tell

the roof is on fire

we don’t give a sh*t
let the mother F*@ker burn!
Testify for that.

*B*A*D*.*B*O*Y*

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you see yourself sitting
on top so self assured
but where is reality to bail you out?
you all the sudden became not so free
you're bored to tears at work,
it's not like what you thought at all.
This life of work and family
trouble is not the goal
But trouble goes where I go
The Devil toys with me
hoping his evil game will win.
in order not to loose,
the trick is not to play with him.
anything good I do
is added to my past
I will need it on the day
when someone wants to ask

I only want to say things that are pure
So my words are clear to all
I only want to do things that are true.
every time you move
I move
I want to learn what it is that I should do
to keep from hurting anymore?
cause I still feel hope
when I don't feel right,
and if most people fade to gray and black,
I’ll fade to white
I think too much and then I start thinking again
where did I get all these thoughts inside my head
I’ll change my ways today
when no-one is watching.
I shouldn't be sad or miss a grin.
doubt creeps deep and doubt creeps within
love skews the view from my cloud.
troublemaker tempting fate,
questioning the path I take,
fighting all the twists and turns,
the forks and points of no return.
I would hold my breath so long
to wash ashore where I belong.
dead roses is my name
like promises I never kept.
promises I never made.

Slow Day

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Driving down the road
in what seems like a foreign town
and the streets and the sun
making my head go round
one eye in the mirror
as I drive down the road
with my foot slammed

on to the floor

well it has been so many years
that I’ve been running after dreams
and now I hardly know my name.
I can't stand the heat
running under cover
I’m running alone
From all the feelings
that I felt at home

so far away
on the longest day
still looking for the truth
or a place for peace
or a friend at the end
of a dead end street

I’ve been drinking on my own
and sleeping by myself
and I never knew
Where the road ever goes
could go so far to the east
it'll turn you cold
Kill your dreams
by the side of the road

some things will never change
some things I’ll never know
walking down the rocky road
without the stars in the sky
and one is one……
some days go too slow.

FREE

Blue shirt dark color shadow men
smoking through the bathroom stalls
they're going to meet
out on the dirt road at a quarter till nine
whispers echo through the walls

At the cross roads we meet again
lost in this passion of holding hand
If you're so bad, the big, big man
you'll be a big sensation then

Cool dudes think that love needs fermentation
high strong girls fighting over them
at the end of the road they don't care
if he's stuck on the side without a friend

I don't want to be a hero
I don't want to be a sheep
don't want to be misunderstood
but when it’s no good, it’s no good
Why can’t we all see?

We’re not BAD, we’re not FREE….

Humanity

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Maybe I’m a little distant
With this so called human life
Lost deep in poetry and hope
Sometimes my tears defies expression
in moments of pain I Can’t find the words
I Can’t get them out free
Sometimes I want to tell the world how I feel
But my anger gets in the way
Without peace sleeping by my side
So goes my childhood dreams

I’d be counting scars
Till the winter end
If that makes me some super star
So here I am with no words to fight
Naked in my plans
Baring my soul for all to see
I know at times that
I frustrate this system
I don’t mean to, I’m just human

Sometimes the world seems dark and grey
And I would collapse without a shining light
To live without peace would surely tear me apart
And I would sooner be a prisoner inside my own heart
As I see humanity walk away
Trying to sneak out of our way
I want to scream at it and beg it to come back
And then I realize Maybe I’m not so far…

Could've Been..

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If there was no tomorrow
Then tonight would never end
If we could freeze the hands of time
I wont stay here again

The flowers I left for you
Are just about to die
When I think about life
It makes me want to cry

The children dying
Didn't mean a thing
I guess our song is over
As we begin to sing

Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been a better world
Every day of our life

The whispers of Peace
Still linger in the air
Like the faded scent of the roses
They stay with me everywhere

Every time I get my hopes up
They always seem to fall
Still what could've been is better than
What we have done to all.

Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been a cure
for every pain of our life

Yet we choose to kill,
Still..

I Won't Look Back

I woke up screaming
Fuck the world till I die
I dreamt I got a call from a friend
Talking about how life is the best
That would be a good dream
If my friend wasn’t dead in mind…

“I said I'll call you later cause I really have to go
He said that’s not cool PJ,
Bros before hoes! don’t you know?
I can't be late, you’ll be okay
I got a date with a real hot flame, I said….”

I woke up from a nightmare
Where I was running down the street
Holding my friend on my shoulder while he bleed
Invisible and no one else could see me
I’m untouchable to pain
All my chances were gone on birth
I feel like going insane
I've had so many things to change
Afraid I wouldn't hurt
I should have done it all for love
But I choose a different path
You can be who you chose to be
But whether you do
whether you don't
Life will continue to grow
I'm looking for the Peace to find some rest
Because I'm not very sure Where I want to be
But if I choose to follow myself along the way
Then Maybe I won't look back
On those days I could have said something
I didn’t…
And those times when I was wrong
I wasn’t…
Maybe I Won't Look Back.

Hopelessness

the old man in the alley
begging me for some change
he could stand a little push
'cause he's got a better life to claim
but like my mom said
you only live till you're dead
and you got to give and give
but she never said till when
there's a pebble lost in the pond
going around and around
making waves and tides and ripples
as it tries to find its life
there's a leaf in the wind
that don't know where to end
chasing days and nights
and wishes and dreams
he can.
seems like everyone
is out looking for the same
singing rain and pain on he who wins the fame
but it'll shine when it shines the way I see it all
you might think I'm crazy
but I have learned what goes up will fall
in the dawn the feelings will be gone
and I’ve got one good night to rest
it's in my heart, not my head
leaving' fears and tears and troubles alone
just about a hundred years or so
that’s how long it takes to erase it all
a few men rode their way down the mighty power
and changed the path to all
and as I write about life’s journey
I couldn't help but cry
and I wish that I could have been there for all
and change human path before another child falls
the revelations I must have felt within myself,
the realization of what a man supposed to be
can you imagine walls so high
the sky would be nothing more than a single thin blue line
then cover that line,
THE END.

No More War !!

Cascading down
There are sounds evaporating into vision
It's a sound in my discomfort soul
That beats with a mission
And I feel like it shuts me in a prison

Say this war won't last
Say it will all just pass
Always the sound in my brain
Children can hear it louder then the rest

Blood on grass running down again
Screams on glass that sound
Dancing away the thought of Peace
Like the lights on a moving bomb
Sounds in my head seem to run
And again I feel a shiver
Thinking of the innocent dead
And the rumble on the earth
As the house of my neighbor
crumbles with their children to dirt

Say it won't last
Pray this war will pass
Always that sound in my brain
Its time to change the world of pain
Blood of our Brothers and sisters on the floor
Mothers crying for their dead children

as they close the casket door
Asking the lord

to forgive his soul

and begging her country

to STOP THE WAR!!