I let it all go

I got the pain forming in my bones from life
Who indeed took over my Thoughts
Understand I couldn't breathe
if she ever said she would leave
I would Get on my knees, till they Bleed
And beg for her for another night
See I don't know if you get it yet
I Just don't know
she’s like the lighter to my cigarette

Watch me smoke.
I never knew another human life
This I Didn't know
Who got the power to take over mine
so now I’m yours.
I love my Gangster Rap
She be in the shower singing "Thug Life cant last”
I'm on the block, where the G's hang
because all of my heroes

came from a street gang
This Crazy Life, I know a day will come
Me and You top notch, in our Brentwood Home

a Bentley parked by the side walk grass
she keep her body covered in Christian Deor
Plus she's ready to ride with me in hard times

Who can ask for more?
Me and my girlfriend
See I can never feel alone with you In my life
I'll give up everything I own to hold you right
Almost a shame

how I'm mesmerized with your touch
Such a shame your family hates us
your kisses make my lips quiver And that's real
And when you touch me my whole body shivers
And tell me, who could ever picture
That me and you would be together forever
I'm running My life not a day too long
you want me to come and prey
Why would I come? when I know my wrongs
I love the street life, But that love is a curse
And when I think about living without you
Nothing is worse
So I let it all go for you…..

Dear GOD...

I'm glad you came around today
I sure needed the help

I'm losing it but you're the same
without you I move at random

Abusing my ways to find the answers
and there's no Jesus here to explain

God take me higher
come take me high above our time

Save all of the good soul
from this jealous world of mine

First You justify, you're not afraid
and I won't feel like this again
You wait with me, because you know
This world of ours is lost in hope
there's so much more than what we have done
we took your gift and burn it down

take us higher off of the ground

come take us higher away from time.

Can You Hear Me?

They told me to run, but just how far
Can I go running from fear?
The hurt in my eyes always gives away to tear
The tension building slowly
Breaking the silence of the night
Can't you hear me screaming?
As I look for better days in the neon lights

There's no direction to my stare
No more flame burning anywhere
Quiet and I keep it to myself
Until the sun sets Then I unleash the beast
I hear a voice in the evening rain calling
Nothing will keep us in peace
No more lies and fear
There's no end to defeat
Can't look back, it's just a waste of time
Can't erase my dreams from my thoughts

Breaking the silence of the night
Through the streets of LA I'm screaming
Looking for life in the neon lights
Why don't you answer me?
Breaking the silence with my laughter
Can't you hear me?

Things Change

All eyes were staring
as I walked through the room.
Armed with my razor smile
cutting everyone to bone.
their voice fell useless
I screamed a quick "Hello."
Feeling the anger
I wonder if it showed

But that was Sometime Ago.
A memory vague and fading slow,
of somewhere I'd been trying to find me
A promise, a word and a voice
Hand on my Heart
I was given the choice
A rhythm to change
and decisions to make
that will keep me together.

I don't know if I can reach so high.
It's a long way to fall if I fail again
trying and holding my fate with a gaze.
Like a child, confused about life again.
what lies behind my eyes you could only guess.
That certain way I think apart from the rest.

Together through thick and thin
lose or win, I'll try till I get it right
Strange how the mind change
time and time again.
Things once important, now pale in comparison.

Silver Dream

In time of silver ash
Closed doors behind the living facts
A few basics of life come to mind
Although there is lost hope in a newborns eyes
The earth still Puts forth new life again,
Green grasses grow
And flowers lift their heads,
And over all the plain
The wonder spreads
Of life and joy
The ultimate taste
In other times there is this silver rain
brings with it
The butterflies silken wings
I tried one time
To find the way
To catch a rainbow cry,
But all I saw was the newborns eye
The trees put forth
New leaves to sing
In joy beneath the sky I breed
As down the roadway
Passing by some dream
Go singing in the plain
Asking me be free
With life and joy
In time of rain
When Spring
And life start again.

Thank You DAD

. . . . . . .

When I think of all of the things you do

the ways in which you care,
I’m filled with a sense of gratitude

and pride that’s always there.

I seldom take the time

to tell you how I feel
so let me tell you thank you

for the wisdom you impart.
And the nights you gave me lectures
Even the nights you yelled

Thank you for the love you give,
the kind words and every prayer.
Thank you dad for listening
and showing me that you care.

Thank you dad for everything,
you’re a man I can admire,
growing up I thought of you different
but now you’re the one that I look up to
for all ideas you inspire.

When I was just a little man
you bounced me on your knee
You will grow up to be a hero one fine day
just wait and see
Time went by very slowly
you were always there
You watched me learn to walk and talk
to learn to climb the stair
When birthdays came you smiled and sang
helped to blow out the candles

with your monster air
Thank you so very much Dad
sorry for all the gray hair.

Orange
The fruit

Being loved by my mother,
And carried with my family,
even when the bitter air strikes,
biting my face and bleeding my joy,
Dying I cry,
How far away will I fall?
Never felt so cold,
I reach for my mother but she was gone
as if an arm reach from the heavens
I felt my soul picked through the air
Snapping my limbs,
Dead on the ground,
Like a corpse I lay in his hand
As he gently lay me to the floor.

LIFE
Inspired by a friend

Look for the strength you know you can feel
Search for the truth you know that is real
Then reach for the place you know they can't steal
And say, I'm feeling good with my life

No point in letting life bring you down
Some say my words are hard
Why do you sound so sad?
There's always something bad, they say
Face up to trouble and stare it out.
I know I should be feeling good with life

No better place to start than with self
Get your head together then follow through
It's not what you're saying it's what you do
I know I'm feeling good with life

Don't fantasize how your life could be
Make all your dreams a reality
Then there is nothing that can bring you down
I know this, I’m trying it now

We've got to make it
All of us living together
Learning to share our lives
We've got to speak from the heart
Find a new way to start
That's something we've all got to realize
In our life

GIVE IT ALL AWAY

Swinging round in circles,
looking for the way,
Fleeing from the idea
when a smile wanted to stay.
My world is swirling round,
this time I know it well,
I used to think its life,
but now I know its hell.

Then I realize inside me,
I’ve had myself all wrong,
This time I know for certain,
I’ve never been that strong
The moment you remember,
those times you stop to think,

But with demons sitting at my feet ,
An angel’s come to ask me why I flee
And slowly I give up inside
To feel alive, I’d give it all away
for a night to fly.

Destructive words to make it so
but none of this you know
Another year, another week,
another set of summer sheets
Another ‘we should hang out again’
Another drink, another Friend

Make Believe

Your morning smile of torture

holds me in its grip
As I try to wake myself from my dream
I felt your body next to mine
you trace the taste of yesterday
the bruise upon my lip
you touch my eyes and hypnotize
and slip inside my heart
I wait for this forever
but we always fall apart
you want to hold me closer

and escape it all for once
you take the size of shadowed men
and punish me with your touch
this romance is sweeter now
now that we're alone

but I meet your eyes and then despise
all we call our own
I write my name in lipstick

on the mirror as I leave the door
to stay would be too dangerous

to break the make believe...

Blue Rain

When it rains I like to seat at home
And pour a couple rounds of Tea
Till the hurting and the heartache start to drown
I turn out the light I turn up the sounds
And I lock my door when it rains

I don't need whiskey to drown out the pain
Or some old umbrella to hold off the rain
Don't have to cross over a river of tears
All that I need is right here

Holding my dreams holds me together
When holding on gets just a little too hard
When this tight rope of life I travel
Gets tangled up in knots
It all Begins to unravel
as it rains on me, all night.

You know life's a run away track
And I'll take the ride knowing
Pain will be back
No fate's too uncertain no distance too far
As long as the rain pours I will try

Whenever I hold life tight
This crazy world of mine falls right in place
As I watch the rain tonight
I cant stop but think of love
On my side of bed , I’m sleeping like a baby
Dreams are dancing' in my head.

land of shame

Another day of thoughts
looking out my window staring
at the things that I can't see
I bet if you listen closely
You can hear a dying dream
we can thank the men of old
for this legacy of hate
somehow they have sold
this dream that does not bake
I’m wrapped up in the warmth
of an unforgiving game
I’m on vacation in the land of shame
when the pigs are flying
and it's freezing cold in hell
maybe we'll forgive the children
only time can tell
we'll be alone together
in a world of peace
we'll be alone together
in a place that doesn't feel like this
I can hear a dying dream
And its deep inside of me
in a place that doesn't feel
I’m stuck till eternity