If I could be

But that’s the whole point
My friends
What will I do?
If I could suddenly feel
And to know
Once again
That, What I feel
Is real
Not a tinted vision

I can cry and smile
Both at once
You should try….
I might laid back for a while
That not to say
I want to end it all
Tell me what I would do
If I could be….

If I could reach inside of me
And to know how it feels
When I like what I see

To go deep in to my soul
And watch my heart explode
Cause at the end of it all
If I only could be.

Where was I Going

I want you to pull me
In from the edge
Save me from the truth of it all
My thoughts can't hold my weight much longer
The tears are making my vision blurry

I need you to drag me away
from this wreckage of hope
I fear I might have lost too much
Too soon
the promises of life are cracked
So I can't see clearly
I only hope you can see the rest

Rip apart like everything
Hope and dreams
Anger me with my feelings
and I can scream
But no one hears me

I look around it all looks familiar
I know I've been here once before
With my face down to the floor
Waiting for something to change

Amazed by the ways of the world
I keep on waiting to see humanity work
Waiting here alone
I think I may have waited too long

They Speak to me in riddles that
is hard to understand
Telling me that I am a better man
As long as I follow them
Then when I ask questions
They get mad

Don’t know where I’m going
But, I sure know where I’ve been
Hanging on the promises
I gave myself
The only promises not broken yet

I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find
It seems like the questions
Get harder with time
with some miracle
I get the strength to carry on
but where was I going….

PAIN with AIR

Pain has so many forms

and comes with so many faces
It comes at times when you least want it
And it goes away

when you need it the most
Its hard to understand a thing
Its hard to function when its there
But every time she walks in

and looks in to my eyes

i run out of words

i run out of air

help me!

put oxygen in to hope..

but seconds before i choke

The pain goes away

and then she smiles

i forget the pain she caused

and for a moment i am happy again

until the pain comes back

and i am left

without air again.

Sometimes

Sometimes love is like friends
Always there to hug you

Sometimes love is like a promise
That seems to never make it

Sometimes hope is like a drug
The less you have the more you crave

Sometimes friends are jealous
And they never see you the same

Sometimes dreams are violent
Waking you in a sweat of your tears

Sometimes money is short
And everything
seems to go wrong at that point

Sometimes people are starving
While others throw away their food

Sometimes children play and laugh
While others hide from the bombing
and watching their parents die

Sometimes I wonder if there will be a time
Where sometimes don’t exist anymore…

Poems turn to dust

There was a time,
when I found a few friends
And their voices were soft
And their words were inviting

There was a time,
when love was blind
And your word was the bomb
And the song was exciting
There was a time it all went wrong
and I kept on trying

I dreamed a dream
in time I cant recall
When hope was high
and so was I
I dreamed that I play
with all my toys
and I would never die
from a childish hope
I dreamed that God
would be forgiving
even when I tried
I assumed I was invisible
So I often hide

I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made to be broken
There was no answer to find
No song unsung, no time

But the lions came out at night
As they turn your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame
And watch you lie on the ground

Hard whiskey and rum

She slept several summers by my side
She filled my days with endless wonder
She took my hurt in her stride
But she was gone when April came

there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
there are times you have to let go
even though you will never

I had a dream my life would be
So different from what I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed another dream,
I dreamed

Hard whiskey and rum
Feel like I'm living
People say happens all the time
It's not that my soul's fallen down
Encased in a rust growing round
The preacher he won't pray for me
something about I question him

What was I thinking?
How could I walk away?
How could I be so blind?
I'll never understand why I gave you up

So Just Dream

Let the Light Fill Your Heart,
Be the Sympathy and cry together
what have you seen girl?
when you fixed me this potion of pain
what vanished my smile,
fading darkness shadow In Me,
you freed my soul
when I was locked in Inside Out,
your touch
your eyes
your dreams kept me alive
Set Me Free..
until it no longer made the tears stop

Grazing Through the hope
All the Warmth and Softness of love
What Will I Do Without You?
All You See Will Turn To Dust

All you know will just be a Dream...

The Orange Night

.

The night sky seems so orange
tangerine like... i can taste it now
the sudden truth of passion
the words so sour
they said no seed
but found a few all packed in to one
surrounded by the skin
soft flesh
holding it all in
inside her shinny life
such passion it had at the moment
now ready
and gone.....

I’m loosing my mind

We made plans
To go and change our bedroom set
We made big plans of
Changing the windows in the house
To some French style windows in white
And maybe hardwood floor to rap it all up

Remember last year
After our trip
We made it so
Each year we can get away
Escape our 40 blocks of life
And expand on our dreams

Now its cold in the morning
Standing in the line
The line of unemployment
Tried to explain to the lady
The phone system don’t work
But no one cares about that
We all just want another chance
We didn’t plan this, right Obama?
Or did I forget!

The bank send out the letters
The time has come to go
The windows will just have to wait
For another dream of someone else
The old bedroom set seems good for now
The vacation might have to be at home
If you want to call it that at all
As I go through Craigslist job posting
Hoping to find my mind
I only realize I am running out of time

This economy has crippled my dreams
Has put my life on pause
The battery to the remote of hope
Has ran out of its last click
Speak, if you are loosing your mind
Tell me when it will stop going down
What about all these jobs that are lost
What about all these families

who lost their house
What about all these pets that are put to sleep
Cause your new apartment says no pets
Or leave…

what do you say to "amber" then?

you were my best friend but time has end...

I wait like the rest
I count the sands in the hour glass
Its only the Numbers

That matter to all of us….

It Hurts!
.
I have this hurt inside
this feeling of pain
moments you never realized
you feel every move
I cant even get out of bed
without a sharp stab in my flesh
pain killers stop working
no insurance
no job
no cash to see a doctor...
I seat home with this pain
wondering when it will stop
the only thing I can do
is prey to god

if I could go away
I would go far from my pain
I would run till it goes away
I will climb to the top
and throw myself off the cliff
if I only knew the pain
would stay away

I tried to smile
but it actually hurt
as the pain throbbing in my body and soul
I’m left in a dense haze
watching the world
not too interested in it, at the moment
nothing I can do
but Hurt!

I need a miracle
a research of hope
I need a friend
with a bottle of dope
the pain will end
but will the memory....
It will never be the same.

The Final Moments

As if time froze
I stood next to you
But didn’t feel your heart

As if the rain had washed away the soil
Where I was standing on
Strong like a man
Now I am falling to my knees
Trying to catch my fall with dreams

with no one around to help

All I wanted was love
To be held
All I ever needed was a companion
To make me understand

I ask for nights of loneliness to end
But you never heard me
I ask for your kiss and love
But you never cared for me
I ask you to be with me forever
You never dreamed with me.

As I seat here now

trying to put things in place
I cant understand why anyone
Would be in a relationship

and not want love
Why?
I never played games with you
I never wanted drama
How did you push my love away
When all I wanted was you

I speak of pain like its part of me
I cry for myself
For I know I will never find what I need
Time passes me by
And so do many faces
As much as I wanted love to last
I cant take the emotional tasteless

No matter if you are a good guy
No matter if you can love
No matter if you are trustworthy
No matter if you are funny
No matter if you are good looking and tall
No matter if you have self confidence
No matter if you are an artist
No matter if you are a poet
No matter if you wanted her all the time
No matter if you wanted to kiss her
No matter if you spend all your time

wanting to please her
No matter if you compromised
No matter if you sacrificed
No matter what… She is gone….
This I cant understand anymore
I tried to be a better man
And all I wanted

was a women to hold my hand
And tell me

that I am the one.

In the final moments

she screamed with anger
I wish you die and I would not cry
Go find yourself another girl

that can love you more.
Cause I have no love left for you.

My dream of God

O God! that you are Creator
of Mos'a and Pharaoh together with
That you can convert
George Bush into a sparrow or a gator!
you created Satan from an angel
And you pullout fire through the water.

You created Eve
through the left flank of Adam
And, Osame bin Laden
through the left flank of Bush.

you are the Creator

of Eggplant and United Nations!
Creator of Security Council and backgammon!
I always ask for you
never in times of need
you are Creator of Iraq and Washington
That you set up Iraq as old civilization land.
And Washington as missile and buffalo land.

you are Creator of poem
and childish orations

of Presidents together with.
Say! that this Poem and hopes are right
not Cluster bombs.

O God! that you are the Creator
of toweres from the petroleum.
you are Creator of all the worlds children
and the protector of the old
you are Creator of Stalin and the wall of china
you are Creator of Marxes and darwins
That you hung Saddam

over the Hammurabi land.

the mass tombes of war
Divert! From any prophet to us

with a miracle.
We are waiting for a miracle

except petroleum.
Then O coffeehouses and water pipes
Onward! a few paces.
Glide in dreams with your dancers
Onward! a few paces.

In a friendly chance
In a world like this
We need to stop the wars
Aback! a few paces.

Oh my god
what am I writing now?
this poem has hiden in all of our faces
Scared to have the finger point at you
We all wait for changes

I was told that you are Creator

of poem and dreams
you are Creator of Hafiz and picasso
you are Creator of heaven and hell

But What would have happen
if instead of Huntington and Tony Blair
instead of Bush and Rumsfeld ,
you had created a human with soul?
Or at least
you had created from the Wasteland's cows
a dream.

The Pain Marks A Feeling

.

Tell me how it feels
What you're going though
It's like a little too real
A little too soon

Take another breath
Take another day
Get a little sad
Let the tears fade away

Help me heal
The way you feel
why do you conceal?
Let me see
How it feels
Like a waterfall
You know you can have it all
Take my hand

Make another plan
Feel a different sun
Set another sea
And make it start again
Take another look
Fly a different flag

A devastating backstroke
All the way from the heart
With shiny, shiny cufflinks
A belly open shirt to enhance it all

The confused men of morning
Are coming for to dance
With pure Armenian Cotton
I don't stand a chance

You criticize the practice
By murdering my wish
Ignoring all the history
Denying me romance

I didn't like the way
you talk to me,
But that was at first glance
Your pillow feels so soft now
everything needs a chance

I put my all in this field of love
And I will watch it grow.
Till towers crumble and fall
And waters no longer flow.

It's always now, and time can't be cheated.
Condemned to the past just to repeat it.
It's all too real as I stare at the ceiling.

These are the chords

that set the whole scene reeling.
Broke the breaks when you stop healing
Close on the end and all that it's bringing.
Hold on to my head to block out the ringing.
It's all too late as the pain marks a feeling.

I want the War to stop

If Life is a competition
Everyone is losing tonight
Don't see how that could be-
Did we just miss something here?
Where did we go so wrong?

You're looking up to the sky
To that childhood hope of God
As you ask him inside of you
For a chance to change it all
It's so unfair.
I'm trying not to care.
But the tears wont let me hide

All those homework that you gave me,
And all those promises you made me
All mean nothing-
Since the economy is gone
Sorry for this imposition,
But I Fucking hate this condition.
But I'll follow along-
And you can walk me like a sheep
And I will pay the gas prices they predict
While the middle class disappears
And the oil companies
and bush make a million a day

What a difference a president makes
Eight little years
Brought the housing slump
Where there used to be power
Brought international relation to fire
Burned our friends and fed our enemies
Changed the world view of democracy
Put “peace” in to the endanger species list

I want to go more deep
It hurts so good
But makes you think
i want to be free
I was told by a Marine once
Don't stop until you get this deep
Keep going 'til you get to breathe

Self-destruction is Bush destination
This is how it pains my days
With mixed emotions - even lies
You make me break all ties to these ways
You lay this guilt on me
But all along
I wanted the war to stop
Bring our soldiers home
Leave Iraq alone.
and pack your bags
cause your out of your home.

Anxious Hopes

I got these anxious hopes
Screaming for a crowd of careful ears
They're getting restless
They're growing so heavy
On my shoulders
From a dream that I never found

My palms now perspire
just barely enough
but they say too much
And I’m scared I'll lose my grip
when the moment arrives
my anxious hopes resist to fall
because the fall is bound to bruise

I’m going to hang up hope
Hoping that soon I will find a job
And give a symphony to satisfy something
I believe is mine
And I just can't ignore
The women I want to spoil
I cant afford no more

There aren’t enough jobs
in this town to go around
You got to be wicked and tricky
to be a Big Boy now

There aren’t enough time to talk to everyone
You got to be distant and bitchy
Do I wish that things were different?
I'm wishing away this second
I won't point fingers but the thing is
Life keeps breaking down on me

God and I disagree
That you can't always get what you need
And I find it a little hard to believe
That there aren’t enough hopes to go around
That's how it breaks on down
There aren’t enough to quench the gas
You got to hit the bull's-eye
and let the shit hit the fan
And still there aren’t no guarantee
Some are going to be broken and shattered
While they're trying' to make a brand new start

As long as hope is lying
As long as my dreams are dying
As long as I feel rejected
and a little bit disconnected
my anxious hopes will stay.

I cant stand these Lies
-A soldiers story

I've got a move,
I’m a pure-bred killing machine
I waited my whole damn life for this
everybody's going to war
But we don't know what we're fighting for
Don't tell me it's a worthy cause
No cause could be so worthy
To watch humans die

If love is a drug
I guess we're all sober
If hope is a song
I guess it's all over
How to have faith?
when faith is a crime?
I don't want to die
I cant stand your lies

where is this God
I hear so much of
And if he exists
then God is a joker
who loves to watch me fall over
Running out through the door
and straight to the sky
I don't want to die
but I cant stand these lies.

For every man who wants to rule the world
Im that man who just wants to be free
Who do we learn from?
And what should not be learned?
Too late to find a cure
Their lies have changed the world

Cross the ocean
Into the big bad world
Where it takes you about an hour
Just to cross the road
Just to stumble across another poor old soul

I fight with my brain
to believe my eyes
And it's harder than you think
To watch their life’s
That creeps up my spine
And haunts me through the night
Suddenly the air smells much greener
And I'm wondering around
With a half pack of cigarettes
Avoiding their lies

These streets have too many names
I'm used to Hollywood
and spending my time on Sunset Blvd
I'll get used to this eventually
I know
but how will their country grow

You see millions of people
with millions of cares
And I struggle to understand
to make it all fair
I look at the people
as they sit there alone
Trying to pretend that
they've still have their home

eventually
I know
I will roam lost
but never alone
Would it help if I tried,
would they court marshal me for their lies
First love grows
then it goes

and its all white lies that they told.

Election 2008

It seems like the weather has changed
And not just the air
Some old guy from days gone by
Remarked that happiness is rare
The things are few
What will they do
There is no better jobs
But guys and chicks in politics
Are greedier than most
You give them bread
they’ll take your head
And fry it till its roast.

In days like these
the problems increase
One out of five homes hits foreclosure
In fifty states they bring their plates,
Then hold them out for more
The very worst will fight for first
With hopes to have more say
As feelings tense
The better ranks
Till that election day

Now Bush would once again
Display how dumb he is
I guess he sees no reason
To change a thing till his gone
They all made rants against our wish
Before the rest of us
In Iraq they also saw
That all they did was wrong
In both these worlds they filled up crates
With classic home-made bombs

Now Obama was first to see
How War destroy our race
He boldly claimed that we will come home
To show the world our face
But macCain will keep us there
He wont change a thing
He wants to use
American trust
To feed their personal lust
And stab the world again.

Hillary broke the pact; instead in fact
She campaigned very hard
Despite the words she left her name
Upon the ballot card
She tried to make Obama the bad
But she made herself seem worse
With all the states watching
When votes came through
We all just knew
And no one was surprised.

I don’t know why

Another day turning to night
I think I’m losing control.
I want to make it all work
But everything I planed
just slipped right through my hand.
I don’t know why.

Im the good guys.
I want to take some risk
But every time I start
my world falls apart.
I don’t know why.

I know you heard this before
but The world is feeling'
like it's passing' me by
I’m working hard not to lose it
but I don’t know why.

lets make a change
I want to be your friend.
But everything I say
comes out wrong at the end
Don’t ask me why.

So I guess I’ll watch my days
see it slide by.
I want to understand this life
I'm feeling' like a fake
every move I make.
I cant land a job
I don’t know why.

Economy killed me.
In league with the loans.
Alone and my life is such a mess.
Picking my face up from the hope
that i just can't compete in.
Nothing is perfect.
So perfectly vacant.


I want warm sedation
around my brain.
And with your nation's anthem.
and your greed for more
Into static ashes
bombing children at home

Now that I’m wired.
They say I expired.
You hurt me with your promises
and I don’t know why.

Life burned up just like paraffin.
Fighting a battle they could not win.
Like a blazing Vampire full of rage.
Got no sense to act humane

What will i do without this world?
Every nerve fires around my words.
Was i wrong to want a simple life?
Drowning in an ocean
Full of childhood fights
I've tried to wipe the tears
away from my eyes
But I couldn't see the light,
Till this day, I just played it blind
I masked it with laughter.
And I don’t know why.

Recession

Come follow me
Ruined fantasy
Across American deserts I flock
Mad sour candy

flank my taste buds
We’ll change all seasons
with our gasoline cars.

All ships of sense sank in the ocean
Bush causes chaos still in motion
Our culture vulture such a lost cause
I'll steal you from the wrong side
If you only let me kill, as you watch.

We'll travel to infinity
But your tears leave trails of fog
Those crippled thoughts
that I can not fix
Hope slips through time
but It wont be missed
another night worrying
about the Next day

Running down the street I know
All too well and it feels like
I've been put under a spell
And I've tried hard to break it
to make it
But since the day this poison went in me
Broke into my life and held me guilty
Now I can't settle down to figure
what’s? ,what?
Somehow I got lost
before I tried.

On the west side of town
where the mild winds always blow.
Peoples faces are hard to see
behind all the flashy things
And on the South side of town
the bad ones are carrying guns.
They are all the screaming and swearing,
asking for education.

The city is full of lonely hearts.
And all the gutters are filled
with broken promise
On the North side of town
they say the streets are lined with gold.
But all the peoples tongues
are turning black from the lies they told.
On the East side of town
you can hear someone’s baby crying.
No job to pay for her food
No way to explain it
The city is full of struggling folks
And all the souls are filled
with broken thoughts.
Waiting for economy to pick up.

so they dont have to loose their house.

Life Won't Last

She's waiting to fall apart
Blind to how bad things are
And I know now
She won't last

Fighting herself again
Ice melting like candle wax
She says that she'll be right back
It's all so sad
She came to the end of the road
just the way these things go
Another bleeding bird confused
with her broken wings

Good days, bad days,
We all had a few of each
Same old story
This life makes no sense
And we all worry

Nothing's in its place,
nothing's certain anymore,
Birds fly, trees sway
why can't I be like that?
Happy knowing what I am….
But truth has been obscured,
I am human thus I’m always wanting more

Oh, the world is a mysterious place
they say it's on our side,
But I wonder, is there comfort in those mountains up high
this life was in the poems you gave me,
Which I read, disbelieving
thinking poets are depressed

I imagined life had purpose
and I'd something good to give,
Now, I've got hundred things lined up for a shelf,
but no shelf to line them with
I don't know why you're showing me the sky,
each time I ask you why?
You say you see heaven,
I see hell, but I still want to try.

this road is long,
this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
"There's nothing you cannot do?"
Well, I've seen some things
but not all of them came true.
And I know now this life wont last

So I don't want to be the last,
I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts
And I don't want to be the worst

I'm learning to breathe,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
And I know a man who lost hope
This is the way he chooses to describe life,
If I think too much
I find there's just a hole
And this life wont last anymore.

Happy At Last

I thought you were playing
When you said you were ready
I know you really didn’t mean it
When you said you feel unsteady.

You just want to leave it
While drinking and smoking to kill it
So I didn’t really pay no attention
I thought things would just happen

I drove pass your house
And I left with the vision
Trying to figure my own life
Struggling premonition

On the way out to figure this shit
I noticed cops rolling pass
Something told me turn around
Normally I wouldn’t consider
But I got this deep feeling
To follow them back

What the fuck just happen
I just left this place
Start walking
Asking what is this?
Then I saw his mama crying
Father, Holding her tears
Yellow tapes surrounding their Fears

Then it finally hit me
I never thought I ever see
Nothing in life prepared me for this

minutes ago i was there
His life had a date with death

and he screamed it to me!!
Another soul no longer breathing

I took this on me

Fucked up to see him in this position
All his life he struggle
Nothing but trouble
And the ending came
Like the way he always said
“Happy At last"

Now we all wait for our time to pass.

I Just Move on..

I Don't want to hear about love anymore
I don't want to talk about how I feel
I don't really want to be me no more

I've been looking for something
Something I've never seen
We're all looking for something
Something we want to be
I tried to get grip on life
But the harder I tried
The farther it slipped

When the streets are flooded with fever
It's a holiday of the chills
We're coming closer now to the truth
There's not a cloud in the sky
And today I have no cares
Today And tomorrow
I’ll be just a bit more aware
And tomorrow I forget I care.

Its been a long night
As I walk pass the homeless man
”Hey man!!”
I hear the drunk yelling at me
”Read another one of those heartbreak poems,
Tell another story how things go wrong,
And they never get back,
My life is a painful stack,
Take that shit back!!
You don't want to be me
when it all goes wrong
You don't want to see me
when I go down”

I'm a little confused
the drunk sounds like he had a life time of abuse
And yet I understand his words
I never thought I could relate
And all along we all the same

I can't stand what I'm starting to be
I can't stand the people
that I'm starting to need
There's so much now
That can go wrong
too much emotions running wild

Everybody says I go away too long
Everybody wants to tell me what went wrong
unless you believe that they're right
The tears will never stop
I watch the people walk away
My eyes reflected the pain
from the stained glass windowpane
And there is no black or white
But still, I just move on

I’m never going to be the same
from this moment I shall rise
to a height only gained by a compromise
share the glimpse of my sacrifice

I’m not running to run away
I’m just wasting away the day
Does it show?
I’ll be laughing until my tears run dry
And the silence fills the air with my smile
We'll talk about all the years
And about how we've been friends

I see no need to go through the same situation
Always so complicated with these thoughts
So I got to move on

I know nothing about Life
This is getting way out of hand
Falling down, unable to stand
Emotions I've chosen to ignore
Do I know what I'm looking for?
I'm a little tired, I'm going to leave it inside
I think it's time for a change
So I will find a way to move on.

Hope vs. Age

This world lights up the show
But its nothing I haven’t seen before
I rather wake up and see the lies
Than play ignore and act surprised

Im just chasing time again
Far away from all the promises
I cant find thoughts that worked
Nor can I fix all the broken dreams

Time seems to pass
As it glides down the river of hope
But I never wait for it again
its never been there
when I need it
And I have no trust for hope

Do you remember the days?
How about the end of the good times?
Beautiful world
you are just confusing me again
Thought I was done
Figured it out, till you came again
Damn you hope

Sometimes its hard to believe
That I still can breath
When will it ever get clear
You cant say I never tried
Sometimes I wish
life just stop for a second or two
So I could catch up

With age I got older
I forgot how to laugh
I realized the value of money
And I lost the meaning of life.

Non-Bleeding Heart

Make up your mind
take me or leave me
I'll be doing fine
Don’t you worry about me
I'm wasting my time
letting you deceive me
The truth is in your eyes
but I deny what I see

You gave me your smile
and I gave in
And you knew that I would
Time and time again
you promise me you stay
now you tell me everyday
how much you want it to end
What is a dream
if it doesn't come true
what is love
if its not here to last

Planting the seeds you grow,
Is easier than growing a tree,
More for the fire that fights
for the Love now mechanical,
and passion gone in the wind.

I want commitment but you don't
you say you will
but I know you won't
I don't have time to spend forever

Look behind my face
Can you still see me?
Or am I gone, just a fantasy
I look into your eyes
You say its this
but its just another thing
You don't accept me and it hurts
You avoid the real me
I don't need anybody
to always disrespect me

As I swim mermaids dance with me
And when I drown

they slowly carry me to the ocean floor
They sing sweet little harmonies
Louder and louder until I can't breath
this is how I feel

For to see my depth of sorrow
You are not allowed to follow me
Into my darkest hours
And then run away
Nothing will scratch this heart,
that no longer bleeds.

that you should know

before you hurt me again.

"This Time"

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
A flickering of all of my mistakes
And as the day light starts creeping in
I slowly feel
The day that begin
But I wouldn't even know
where to start.

Do I push to hard?
Or fall to fast?
The moment never seems to last
Will I stop long enough to know
or will I die a lonely soul.

Everybody burns
the feelings get tangled
the emotions become lost
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away,
Not this time….

Your words circle in my head
Weigh so heavy on my chest
And I'm crushed by your expectation
I only want to do some good
Too scared to know if I could
And I just want to feel the days I'm in
I just needed your company.

Do I go to far,
Not far enough?
Why can't I keep my big mouth shut?
And do we lead the life that we should?
Waiting for the day she says she would

Did I say to much again?
I'm just a guy in a panic
If I tell you my truth
Am I getting through?
It just seems I should confess
Who am I to pretend
This is more than I can carry

Some people live in a house on the hill
And wish they were some place else
There's nobody there
When the evening is still
Secrets with no one to tell

Some I have known
have a ship where they sleep
with sounds of rocks on the coast
They sail over oceans
five fathoms deep
But can't find
what they call ‘need’

Even now when I'm alone
I miss the thoughts of holding you
Some live in towns
Cardboard shack on concrete
All bluster and bustling life
They search for the color
they can never quite see
Cause it's all white on white
and black on me.

For me it's a glance
and the smile on your face
the touch of your hands,
And an honest embrace
For where I lay
it's you I keep,
This changing world I fall asleep
With you all I know is I'm coming home,
but you never told me the way.

Cradling stones hold fire bright
As crickets call out to the moonlight
As I lean in to steal a kiss
I realize your no longer there
I'll never understand my life.

The trees grow so thick
You can barely see through
But the forest bestows
the simplest of truths
You think you'll be happy
if granted one more wish
But the truth is
you'll never see me again.

Want so much in this life,
There's so much to be
We sail through hours so impatiently
Until we see
That the years move along
And success and fortune come home
Time, it fades away,
Precious as a song
Cause someday we'll be gone

You wanted to break me
You thought you should make me understand
And your words - they cut so deep
'cause you won't let me be who I am
You took something away from me
And gave me an empty space

Did you know that you
pushed me to the outside?
Did you know that you
cut me on the inside?
If you could only read my mind,
you'd see how you made me feel
Alone on the inside,
alone on the outside…

You thought you could love me
You all in circles and me without walls
With your pointed fingers and stories made up
And me pretending it didn't hurt at all
You took something away from me
And made me so used to being alone

So where did you go, where are you now?
What I did to you,
I’ll never know
And what you did to me,
I’ll never show
Now this time you know how it feels
to be all alone.

Destiny

2PAC & PJ

Could it be my destiny
To be lonely
And check all these girls
That always want to be around
acting like they know me

but deep inside I worry

Because they are all phonies

But you were different
I had no reason to be suspicious
Cause I can tell
My life with you will be delicious

The way you toss your hair
And shake your hips
Got me addicted
Im sitting here trying to figure
Hopefully soon will kick it

Even though I got needs
I got to struggle
To resist it
Slowly advance
And not miss my chance
To miss it.
You blow me kisses

as i stare you in your eyes

you say forever

when i ask how long

you'll be by my side

you make be calm

But im more lonley

once again.

I see you reminiscing
I hope you listen
The position
The pressure
The competition

Me and you

were meant to be my destiny
No longer lonely
Cause now its all about

you and me

I can see
A happy home
That’s my fantasy
But my reality
Is problems with your family
What can I do
I don’t want to loose you
To the suckers
Cause if he touch her
I got some drama for that buster
Don’t want to rush you
But You don’t have to
Go through all this drama
This I want to tell

your mama!

No one left to tell

There are things I could've told you
There's a time and a place
Where my words, would allow me
To say what I want change

I have these dreams
That seem to go away each day
I had these thoughts
That gave me all my grey

There are birds all around me
The flowers pressed to my face
I need her so much
I would drive just to see her
But I dont know where she is
The scary part, im closter phobic
And when she left
I couldn’t breathe

Im stuck in so many paths
I need her advice
I want to hear her thoughts
I get chills on how much I miss you
I will kill anyone that causes this again…….

I promise im a different man
Yet I am the same inside
I seen things others cant
I’ve done wrong others wont
I’ve been good, others have seen
And yet no one is there for me.

It's been weeks since I saw you
But each day I close my eyes
And see your face
And in time you will remind me,
that you wish you never left
That you didn’t think
I would take it so hard
That not seeing you
Was KILLING my heart!!!

All the world is but a mad man
screaming over all my fears
No one hears your pain
they're way to busy for something
And the days become weeks
and the months turn to years
and you only have you
to show for it all

You got to know by now
that no one sees all those tears
When you cry cause it hurts
doesn’t mean you fear
and it doesn’t mean its cleared.

Because aloud in heaven
the Angels cry with you
When you shout about the way you feel
a million lies appear
and there is no one near you

When you break and you yell
and there's no one left to tell
you have the tears of heaven
and his grace will come to you
and if in that moment
it didn’t make sense
its because you spend a lifetime
chasing broken ends.

I Think Too Much

I believe in windy days
when everything gets blown away
I Promise you I'm not afraid
I will sing a romantic song
About the birds and lion hearts
But please if I forget to stop
Remind me who I am and what you are

when our eyes close we're the same
I believe in kings and queens
And everything stuck in between
But please if you must take a peek
Don't spoil for me the mystery

Yesterday I thought that
I was low as I could get
I had hit rock bottom
There's two feet of topsoil
A little bit of bedrock,
limestone in between
A fossilized bone
A little patch of crude oil
A thousand feet of granite
and then there's me

I was kind of hoping
I could dig my way back out
A couple dozen attempts
maybe get me back up
But the pain in my eyes
as you talked away my joy
stop me for ever trusting another soul.

all good people have
a sense of themselves,
They never worry,
they know what tomorrow holds
And all good people
are far from me
I've been feeling lonesome
I'm down,
don't know what to do
I let you lie to me
Plant seeds inside
To see them grow
Only to leave them to die

Well is your cup half empty?
Is your cup half full?
What are you going to be
Now that you are old
Are you a gym teacher,
Rock star, or superhero
In a major motion picture
Action feature, creature?

Maybe tomorrow we'll crush a
Nickel on a railroad track
Time is running out
I think, I think too much…

Forget the truth

There is a dream
I used to have.
My dream swallowed me whole.
There is a bridge where I had to cross
That is where I lost it all

High on the bridge
I seen my path to my dream
There is a life I never knew
They said careful with life,
life just disappeared
They said I took too long
and now it wont appear

High on my thoughts
I seen my hope walking away,
waving to me goodbye
I smiled and raised my head
and watch it all disappear
But I can't escape my memories
They come back to me so clear
There is the truth I can't escape

and that causes me fear

Now I know why ever since ever
Been having the same dream
Now I know the truth about life
A scared man in my private pain
Hushed voice in my electric chair
Strange talk about tomorrow
and the long walk of the dark days

In the myth of a merciful god
In the myth of a heaven and hell
I hear the voices you hear sometimes
Sometimes it points me well

other times casues confusion

and wont point me to the truth
I ran through the jungle
I Hide in the dark
I did not lose my mind
I heard the truth
Now its time to forget.

I need you next to me…

I’m all alone
Making my way to a cold,
empty home
Nobody waiting
and no one to hold
I wake up early
Staring at the mirror to find my face
Pick out the pieces
I hide from within
and I have been told
I don’t fit in.

If weakness is a wound
that no one wants to speak of
Then "Trust" is just how far
we have to fall
I am not immune,
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth
I need to confess
I'm not alright,
I'm broken inside
And all I go through,
it leads me to hurt.

I'm so alone,
empty and lost,
Time will erode the shame
and the fault,
it's easier to let me go.

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything
I hide behind is gone
And when I'm open wide
with nothing left to cling to
then you shall see
I'm not that strong.

Safe in the eye of the storm
Mercy and faith keeps me warm
the dreams I've seen tattered and torn
Just when I think
I can't take another one

She gave me shelter
and never will I be alone
Hold me closer
She help me find my way home
Cause its a long road
through the darkest of nights
But her love
won't let me lose sight.

High is this mountain I climb
Deep is this river of time
The devils got trouble in mind
Sometimes I stumble
But she is there to remind me
Standing right there beside me

I've made up my mind
Everything's fine
There's faith in disguise
There's no more secrets to shadow the lies
I swallow my pride
Somebody cares,
hard to be seen
when there's nobody there.

Realize that I can loose control,
Impulses keep flashing through my head
I'm on the outside
Take up all my life inside,
why would I let them
make up my mind
And be mislead
Go ahead
make up your mind
I have had enough
of who they want

This pain inside
I can't understand
This hate in life
that will not go away

I'm always going to be one life behind
That's why I'm all alone
What's it going to take to make you see
It's the black clouds over your head
It's the monsters under your bed
As tragic as this might seem
I need you next to me.

I’m going to make It.

What makes you think I can't make it?
Put me to the test, I'll take it
I've been through more trials
But I've overcome all

And I've never been one for faking
I kept on moving and shaking
And that's how I made it

There's a time for every star to shine
And a place for every dream to see the light
When you have everything
You don't need

another reason to be something

I walked thru the fire
Fought thru the raging storm
I found peace inside of me
Darkness inside my heart

I've got to be strong
I will stand for my dreams
I was made for this moment
I was made for pain

Haunting echoes from a careless word
You'll never know how much they hurt
Dreams are precious don't you know
But they are so hard to follow

I was taught not to run away
because raindrops
will always fall on your face
When it seems like all hope is gone
Got to get thru the storm
Before you can see the dawn
This is all I am
Someday soon I'll be ready to go
Mind, body, spirit, I'll be out on my own

I'm almost me,
I'm almost free
Going nowhere,
heading somewhere all at the same time
Reaching up and looking down

I came from the bottom,
worked my way up
Ran with big doggs,
had to get my weight up
Reminisce of times
when we all were hungry

I came from the streets
Did my own thing,
Sometimes I cant believe

i made it
toast and take it
But I keep moving and shaking
Stay true to my faith and
I am not worried about you
I'm going to make it.

All that I am

Here I am a little nervous thinking
What have I done again
Can't seem to find the words today
Can’t make nonsense make sense

We go in and out of laughter
We don't know what we want
Holding out for something better
We forget who we are
Through every twist and turn
We live but we don't learn

Standing here amidst this point of definition
Pushing for life’s position
as I battle opposition
I am on a mission
or is it all in vain?
Do you notice the difference?
or is it all the same?

Lord keep me only focused on good
Make me a humble man
Don't ever let me take the credit
For all that I am
And who do I blame?
when my vision gets blurry
Get in a hurry frustrated and feeling fury.

Faith is enduring
to stand the test of time
Answers are plain
we make them hard to find

Destiny cannot be shaken
Fate will send us where we need to be
Many turns our world has taken
But in the end
you're standing here with me

It's a long road to peace
We're standing' on the edge of hope
We're standing' hand in hand
Nothing will break us if we try
My heart's filled with such emotion
I want a reason for the air I breathe

I see the truth upon the elders
frowning down upon my life
like a trophy valued by masses of minds
are closed to a variety
and change in a life so bland
through others learning from nothing

responsibility pointing failure
cause the reflection in the mirror is what you fear
to see like a trophy
you pose like you are immortal
than me like I care what I hear...

I’ve seen both sides of the fence
because changing is evolving
a learning lesson through experience
is all that I am
more knowledge
than your common man.

Catch my Fall

I used to think that anything I'd do
Wouldn't matter at all anyway
But now I find that when it comes to dreams
I'm the winner of cards I can't play

The rain is like an orchestra to me
Little gifts from above meant to say
Wait with me, wait for me
I'm alive when you're here with me
But it stop to rain…

Why do the street lamps die
When you're passing by
Like love that won't stay on my side
If you held me close,
we can laugh it away
Would you dare the glance
that I steal to stay

I'll find a way to see hope again
I'll find a way if you catch my fall
Everyday is a struggle,
but you can catch me trying
I need to Take more risks,
playing' with my wish
screaming' "Fuck Life!"
My vision is deep
the Division will creep

Knowledge, Wisdom, Understanding, Culture, Freedom..

I wonder what stopped the rain
My life is like some cheap champagne
The answers don't always seem to fit
My glass is full, but it tastes like shit

I need a quick decision
And a cheap reward
I'm in my last revision

So I'll cry just a little bit longer
And I'll stay two seconds more
And I'll try to be stronger
And I'll see if you catch my fall

What Dreamers Do...

I got to go,
There's always something new to see,
Where is the way,
it's all supposed to be.
Sometimes the world throws you down,
If you take too long.

I want to go

where the stars fall from the sky
The rivers never dry out
Alone in the roads
just me and the world
And I try
Till there's nothing left to do
And there's nothing left to say
All of my troubles fade away

I'm breaking away
On a U-Turn that I found
It's a new day
Time to turn it all around
And I'm never looking back
I take down what I need
Cause you know I need to breathe
I'm tired of walking on another plane
Another plane
cause I feel insane,
I step back to get to you
you move back
I'm falling through
Another day I feel the same

I'm teaching' myself to dream
I'm holding' my breath to scream
I’m teaching' myself to believe
I don’t care if its ever true
That's what dreamers do

I watch the hours
through the glass
And watch the time
as it actually pass

I wish there was a photograph
that showed what I dream
And I could kiss the photograph
and get what I need

I wish I was a canary
so I could sing so sweet
I wish that I could steal the moon
and kiss it with my feet
I dream I was a remedy
that you wanted to take
A product of a recipe
that no one had to bake

I wish I could forget
all the days of pain
the hurting in my heart
wash my life with Listerine
to make a brand new start

I wish there was a fairytale
that turned into my life
I wish the voices in my head
would leave my ears alone
So my eyes could stop crying
and I could find a home
I wish the raindrops on the glass
would let me join their dance
I'd spin and twirl and laugh
and drown my thoughts and past.

Did you come to dance?

Super automatic Drive
motor running wild
circles in the parking lot
Self-sustaining system
Cruise-control distressed,
I’m kind of cursed
and kind of blessed
my engine running on the fume
Vision blue and blurry,
falling angels in a flurry,
spinning thru the empty room
Did you come here to dance?

Here we go
Closer to the end
Let me know
I'll be your only friend
Things you thought you understood
Are all the things I lack

And I'd leave it all behind
With no regard for what I'll find
In time you'll see
That you can’t breathe
without me

just like i cant eat

without you
Life and times go by

Well I know nothing is okay
Will it show if I try to numb the pain?
Things you thought
you understood
Are all the things I'm not
So sorry
And so afraid....

And our hearts for now
They get a little bit harder
But as time goes
they will beat as one
And soon enough
We will be in love
In each others arm

Got a crush head rush
what a sensation
Butterflies all night
can't stop shaking
And I can't explain
what you do to me

No need for gravity
when you're floating
No others got
the color of my emotions
and you look and say
well.. did you come here to dance or what??
And the night goes on…..

Falls Apart

Looking' back on everything
And all the things that stay
I can count on memories
because they don't go away
Good times were hard to hold
nights filled with laughter
I moved like I was untouchable
Till one night the laughs were gone
People that called you friend
Just moved along

With an angel on my left side
and the devil on my right
My soul is the one who save me
from them dark unholy nights
Of all the ones who've left me
it's a wonder my soul is not gone

I don't care what the game is
I am always down to play
My world without laughter
a million miles away
you don't have to worry
I know where I belong

I've been dealt some aces
And I've played them all
But hope is the only one
that keeps me in the game
No fame or fortune
could ever keep me gone
Life moves me like the real Capone

There's a magic down in Los Angeles
That never seems to fade
Even now them voices carry
Like a lonely serenade
In all my travels
I've never found a way
To find the words that say
the things I'd like to say
I've wrote some melodies
but nothing made sense
I sat down counting
Hours as they passed

I Might Decide
That The Passing Of Time
Marked By One Second Lines
Is All That Stands In The Way
Of A Lifetime Spent Catching Up
And An Endless Perfect Day

I Might Decide
To Show You The Signs
That have found Their Way
Turning From Nothing Serious
Into The Things I Say

Center is where
I see myself
In the beginning
I'm sitting in the middle
In a crowded room
Nobody hears me
Trying to reach out
Teach me

I'm running out this life
People tell me not to waste it
But how can I taste it
When I never lived
When loved never last
When I never trust

I'm just a stain
I'm trying to make my mark
On a spot that's been dark
For a long time
Been a long time since peace
Broken down a systematic panic

So I sit here alone
Trying to find my own way
To cope with everything
That I've done wrong
So I try real hard not to see
What life has done to me
But I couldn't find my heart
And there won't be any silence till it's gone
watching me as I slip away
'Cause everything I know just falls apart.

"Crashing Down"

These back steps
are steeper to the ground
The brightest stars
are falling down
I'm walking the edge,
walking the tightest rope

If everything's crashing
then there will be change
If I'm in the open,
I will feel the pain.
rolling like a hurricane
I'm over the bridge
and away from the rain

Take it back to the beginning,
back to the start
When gravity's pulling,
stars crashing hard
hope comes crashing down
Crashing down on me

These four walls
that were closing in
are breaking apart
The talk is louder
than your thoughts
I want to be there,
want to be where you are
But you know it all,
every look and smile
that aren't meant to break

Yesterday I was sitting recalling reminiscing
Trying to remember whenever
there was nobody listening
Before the hugging
and the kissing,
the booing and the hissing
All I had was just a vision,
all I had was my ambition
Your love without condition
kept me swinging when I'm missing

My eyes upon the prize
kept me striving for the mission
When I was down for the count,
falling out of the commission
I can hear your voice
now screaming out, 'PJ, listen'
Get on up, give up,
you struck opposition
Time to buck all that stuff,
find out what's your condition
Like a pull in your soul,
like keys in my ignition
my dreams and my vision
all crashing down.

Only Time will tell

I hesitate to say
I was bait for time
Could this be something
that we all have done.

And I don't know
what my intentions are
They're speaking in a different tongue
And deep inside,
I'm not as tough as I seem
But I won't let you know

Crazy as it all plays out
I think I'm lonelier
than I've ever been before
'Cause I was so close
To going through that door
But I don't want to be
to blame for your pain
I don't want to be to blame

I keep telling people to hush
‘cause I can’t trust them
There’s six million stories to tell,
now which one’s about them

You see I watch these rumors
spread like flies in the night time
All this gossip keeps eating
away at my lifeline

I take a look around
and all I see is humanity being broken
I guess kindness leaves you open
I wish I could fly away
from everything people say and do
I wish that I can run away

Only if I knew
what made me hopeless
When time stands still
I just sit back and focus
I hold a pen to the page
And then I write
like I was trapped in a cage

Yeah I trust you
about as far as my hand reaches
Sticking to me like leaches
and holding me tight
I went from deep sleep
to sleepless nights

Only time will tell why people
try and drag you down
They never make a noise
and they never make a sound
Only time will tell
if these people really want you
Maybe one day it’ll
come back to haunt you
Only time will tell
what’s the price for being famous
Some die with a name,
some die nameless
Only time will tell
when you make a mistake
Hold on to your life before it’s too late…….

Invisible Man

I don't think you know my name
I'm the invisible man
Trapped in thoughts about me and you
I don't know where to begin
Can you give me a clue
Help me break this puzzle of pain

And I'm standing here, patiently
And I'm waiting for you to see, me
fix my hair, my intriguing stare
Everything that should make you care
But I'm the invisible man

So many times you looked my way
But I swear you don’t see me
I wish you'd open up your eyes
and see me for me
And all we can be
and let it be

I'm not no Al Capone
or some rich guy in wall street
I'm just a guy who disappears
Every time opportunities appear
I just have a lot of dreams
Go to the beach
and run through the rain
Stretch beyond your reach.
take a flight to Spain
Can't you see how great it'd be
If you could just only see
I'm not the invisible man

When I'm stuck on the ground,
There's no up, only downs,
Every step sends me falling,
Not sure how to begin,
How to rise like the wind
So that soon I'll be soaring
I just breathe and let myself believe,
That you are the one for me

'Cause hope has wings,
To carry me
So I lift my guard,
And see the sky,
Feel my heart begin to fly,
I will be carried by my dreams,
even though im the invisible man

you insist that you are right
and I am wrong
I know I’m not the best
but I’m no different than you
what if I was everything you wanted?
would you still disrespect me?
I cried again but never again

I can forgive but never forget
and I will never forget
But I will forgive
Even though im the invisible man.

Stand on his right

The things I've seen in life
will make anyone go insane
not to be able to close your eyes
so you never see the images
locked in your thoughts
Like an aborted fetus in a jar
that opened it's eyes
Provoking my demise,
I'll leave your spirit broken inside
Like the feeling of millions of people
hoping you'd die

And people wonder why my heart
is filled of hatred an anger
Cause I read in the news
some bitch killed her first born son
with a coat hanger
I strangled out the pain
until my soul was empty
was cold
Crippled and worthless
so I thought that it could never be sold

My mother told me
that placing my faith in God was the answer
But then I hated God
cause he tried to give my mother cancer
Killing us slow
The genesis of genocide

is like a Pagan religion
Carefully hidden

woven into the holidays of a Christian
I had a vision of hunger holocaust
And this is prophecy

the words that I speak from my lungs
The severed head of John

the Baptist speaking in tongues
Like "Che Guevara"

my wisdom speaks to a gun
Paint in slow motion

like trees that reach for the sun
In my execution

producing thoughts at the speed of light
Burning confusion

I'm loosing my sight

breathing is tight
The evening is white

I made my peace with the Lord and now I
Stand on his right..

Whatever Will Be

Sometimes I feel like
I'm a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now
and envy where I've been
that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story
no one's told
and yet no one to really hear it.

I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
although I like
To know what life's got planned
No one still knows
which shooting stars will land

These days it feels strange
to put your faith in hope
To imitate a child,
fall backwards on the snow
that's when fears will usually lead you blind
Im mentally drained
the rope I walk on is wearing thin
I feel like my life is caving in
the weight on my mind
A heavy black bird caged inside

When I'm falling, I'm tumbling down,
I'm crawling around on the ground,
I've been wondering, wondering why,
Wondering why life's so up and down.

The night before life goes on

The night before life goes on
I heard your echo in the canyon
upon the timberline
You said you were invisible
And so was this heart of mine
I heard you whisper on the water,
there on the mighty sea
You spoke of love deep as the ocean
When You spoke of life to me

I am loved by my Father
I am nourished by my mom
It is love that has captured
me from going down
I heard your laughter in the sunrise,
amidst the morning birds
A song of freedom for all creation
And you sang me every word
I heard you singing in the silence,
a simple melody

The night before life goes on
And the element of surprise
that none of us were prepared for
The dead body behind the curtain
that we couldn't help but stare towards
This afternoon you were
an only child and a friend to me
This evening you're not breathing
you're just the seed of a memory

My memory remembers
presently everything from that night
My senses always sensor
any awful images or sights
All I ask is a better day
A better way
To carry the weight of you
I write this poem to remember the days
When I wasn't afraid
To carry the weight of you

To the friend that I love
who has different roots of blood
You are the earth that makes mud
that comes from rain that made the flood
We cycle in and out of life
Standing here on this coast alone
Sitting on the sand
Sneaking a smoke from Ivet
Checking out the moon
And the city lights
The night before
Life goes on……..

Underneath

Waking up this morning
Thinking this can't be real
But they say there is nothing
love can't heal
Why don't you come on down
So you can feel what I feel
I know your tired so let me help you relax
Take off your worries from your shoulders
Soak up your feet in the water

Sitting all alone in this place
Even though my soul is taken
There is nothing planned
But there's something wrong
I believe im mistaken
Im getting older and lonelier as days go

Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe
So take a look around and tell me what you see
don’t tell me its not your fault
Then who can I beg for change
Im not strong enough to be alone
Not another day…

I know what to say but don't know where to begin
The fear of losing you beneath my skin
Is there resolution for this pain that I'm in
Sitting all alone in this place
Even though we are face to face
There is nothing changed
But change itself

I'm stuck here underneath it all
waiting for you to make a move
So take a look around
Tell me what you need
I will support you till the end
As long as I know your next to me
There is nothing more that I need

If only you could feel what I dream
Maybe you could hear what I mean
There is nothing gone
But there's something missing
when you see me underneath it all.

Revolution

I got a text message from a pelican
Said in the clouds last night
she got higher then she's ever been
Seen shuttles and huddles,
hard rocks and war bombs
In other words
nothing more then distorted dreams
Coke and Hennessy mix,
guitar playing by Jimmy Hendrix
The world's corrupt,

how can I defend it?

you Know what it is
when you really trying

to be something
But in your mind
you really can't find nothing

But am I wrong
if a preacher can't reach me?
Or am I dumb
cause a teacher can't teach me?
I have pigment so this world here
wants to bleach me
I'm too much hell
for this heaven here to keep me
But you can beat me, slander me
But you will see I'm real…
so you still got to answer me
when revolution is near

The thought of all destruction,
man wont let anything last
I feel the pain and suffering,
the world system collapsed

Wood is burning,no more war for oil
Shattered glass the aftermath,
tragic death on our hands
there's heaven and there's hell
Burning souls, the opposite of peace
It's time for revolution, no more bullets off the shelf
Because we need to end war

The end is almost here
but we have been here before
So I haven't any fear
for I trust in the Lord
If I die for this revolution
I want nobody to cry,
nobody shed not a tear.
In the middle of the floor
pour out your liquor and your beer

hear me loud and clear
When I'm howling at the moon
Mama heard me scream
for freedom in the womb
Heard me strengthening
with the beat of her heart

the streets won't repeat
If it ain't adverse,
then the reverend won't preach
Into the big bad world
Where it takes you 'bout an hour
Just to cross the road
Just to stumble across another poor old soul
my eyes fight with my brain

to believe this sadness
That creeps up my spine
And haunts me tio madness

And I'm wondering around
With a half pack of hope
Searching for the change

that I've lost

These streets have

too many names

to remember them all

Where'd the days go?

When all the children did was play
And the stress that we had

wasn't stress at all
Just a run and a jump

into a harmless fall

Walking by a high-rise

to a landmark square
You see millions of people

with millions of cares
And I struggle to the train

to make my way home
I look at the people

as they sit there alone
Life and the sun is shining
Everybody needs peace
a revolution to change.

You are so Hollywood

This life is out of line
Backs off when you’re falling down
Look to all your friends for some clarity
The Republic got a war they cant win
yeah, a dollar
a liter
makes you shit-scared at the pump
where's the worlds obligation to make
decision's not for some

What they say
What they do
Must be an election to make a change
Yeah the fear is an infection
So rise above, here comes the flood
Use your words to show your feelings
It's the liars who'll be kneeling

Well it's a common attraction
Searching for the rich man scene
Cause you're so Hollywood
And they are all
looking for some action
I got to get out of this town
Got to get my feet back on the ground
Don't want to sell my record collection
So take a look in different direction

I'm feeling down
It's getting tough
You know that
the getting out is getting rough
This town is fucking with my head
You're becoming Hollywood they said

And it's getting close to dark now
On the Sunset Boulevard
With the designer medications
Just another valium in the red wine
So sit back and watch me rise
Higher than the moon
I'm up here all Hollywood
Looking down at you

I Listen for sounds
I've been chosen to hear
Like you're laughing alone in the dark
Feeling so down
With nothing to fear,
But the break that I feel in my heart.
I'm hearing sounds of the turntable spinning
And you're running on air
As you dance the night in Hollywood square

So look out yesterday
Tearing out the thoughts
With every word you say
Numbing the pain out
like a brand new beginning
Cause everyone here looks the same
The merry-go-round traffic makes me
Feel like I'm spinning and
Everyone's screaming my name

Well time is slowly tearing me apart
So I'm just holding on
Cause I know it's a ride
And it feels so hot today
even in west LA

Burn all the candles out
Make a wish, but not aloud
Re-live the here and now
To see you now and then
I'm a revolving door
I've seen it all before
I will begin again
I took a look around
I believe in hand me downs
The treasures we found inside Hollywood

I'm feeling out of touch

Maybe I think too much
That old familiar touch
Will always sting my skin
The good in everyone in this town
The ties we've left undone
The heart that moves your blood
All the things that bring me
right back here once again

If morning never brings
Salvation,
Leave me and save yourself,
I'll only slow you down.

Breathe in slowly,
Are you listening?
On this muted Hollywood block
Everything is paused.
So add another notch.
In your painted town I'll hide.
As another nameless face.

Nobody but a Fool

Going through my old dresser drawer
Fumbling through the closet
Searching from room to room
We couldn't have just lost it
It's got to be here somewhere
I know it's round here somewhere

Maybe we packed it up
With old books and winter clothes
Things we thought were in the way
Out of style or just outgrown

We didn't give it away
We just left it alone
We tried to find it one day
That's when we noticed it gone
I turned the house upside down
Praying I'd stumble across
Some sign that’s it's still around
Got to find the love we lost

Captured in old picture frames
Shinning in those faces
It used to be here somewhere
Reflected in our eyes
How could we misplace it
I know it was here yesterday
How could it just slip away
it was more then just a box of junk,
We stored away to gather dust.
This was a dream we thought,
We always could reach out and touch.

Don't waste your time giving' me your reasons
Let's skip the ceremony of goodbye
Let's get down to the part where you are leaving'
You can skip all the who, what, when’s and whys

Just hit the road
You won't find me standing' in your way
If you're not happy with me
Then I'll gladly set you free

You want to talk this through to make it easy
you want a break-up just as painless as can be
And there's that line

that you never meant to hurt me
Well, you're just trying

to clear your conscience as you leave
Nobody but a fool would love you
After the way you've done me
Broke every promise you made me,
I lie awake all night,
cry till you were out of sight
Loving you with all my heart
Nobody but a fool

I don't know what it was

that made me stay for so long
Stars got in my eyes or either rocks got in my head
All I know was your two lips promise me heaven
Till yesterday those tender lips whispered goodbye

I put on the saddest song
ignore the telephone
I go ahead and cry the pain from my eyes
I let my mind play tricks and then
I let it fool me once again
Into thinking' that I'll never be alright

People tried to tell me

how you'd hurt me I suppose
But I was blind as any bat and deaf as any post
You clawed me like a tiger, I loved you like a lamb
And knowing I still do

just shows me up for what I am

Time heals hearts, so I know
Passage of years slowly pulls the pain away
But there's still a little tenderness

left in everything I do
It's what I learned from loving you

Times have changed, I have changed, too
Even my eyes have turned a lighter shade of green
Well, I guess it's all that crying they went through
It's what I learned from loving you
And someday soon,

someone else will need this heart
And the next time

I'm going to know who to really love
It's what I learned from loving you
Im nobody but a fool.

The man I am Today

Like a misty breeze
on a summer day
Or the warmth of sun
after rain, peace,
Always seem to balance me
with your touch
If you're far away
I want you near
might sound cliché
But my words are so sincere
can't you Taste the joy
inside my tears

I've lost a man’s treasure
in this ocean of pleasures
And now that I have depression
I won't search for anything more
this is a group endeavor
And there's nothing I'd rather see,
Than the truth about God
'Cause this feeling
is so surreal,
Over this connection between
empty thoughts and the void
inside of my soul.

Middle of the night
it's getting so hard to breathe.
I can't sleep, can't think,
can't hardly dream.
Sometimes I fear
what the world wants me to be

but then I Opened my eyes
and saw what the world is,
I opened my mind and I was set free.

There's more in this world than we see,
Just leave these illusions behind
run with me.
If all of the things
that you thought
you would be,
Pass you by.
We'll still find
what we need
in our lives.

I spent a lifetime
hoping it would come to me.
Getting lost in the lies I believed.
We're covered by a mask
that we think is our sin,
But we never realized
that the truth is within.

And what are you hiding from?
Is it safe there inside your walls?
'Cause your chance is bound to come,
If you're strong enough to live at all.

I’m crying in the kitchen
Even Amber can feel the chill
She lays her head down on the table
Next to a stack of my unpaid bills

When I was younger wishing I was richer
I woke up one morning homeless in the streets
I tried to talk to my friends
they told me not to bother
boy being a man
means being strong
this I was told by my father

So you say you want to see
behind the curtain
you want to know
why I don't show it when I'm hurting
It never did me any good before
so long ago I locked that door
But please don't think
I'm pushing hope away
It's just the man I am today.

Nothing makes Sense

Einstein got nothing on me
when it comes to over thinking
Paranoid, is how I prefer to be
into the ground I'm sinking'

in your ordinary way
you can't help me out of the ordinary
You're just like the LA Dream

man you're over and done
before you've begun

I won't be like the only one
who would stand here and smile
and try to act like nothing is wrong
go back to beginnings of stories
too long to be told
Like you were the only one
who ever got left in the cold.

Hurricanes are blowing
out my brains
but my eyes are calm and hollow
Air plane stalls from the sky
it falls
you can read the news tomorrow

Leave if you want to leave
It's alright....
I know what it's like to feel like....
life is passing by
and you are stuck in the place you're in,
stuck out of luck and it hurts.

I met a King of a country once
but the guys in the deli don't believe me.
And I think that the problem is mine
And I should start to take a more positive line
on the situation when solutions
are staring me right in the Face

I had a dream about a song.
It was so strong.
It made all the rights wrong
I tried to write it all down.
Capture the sound.
You won't believe what I found.
The good turned to bad,
sad and mad
when I played it
nothing made sense.

Where does it end?
'Cause I don't know where to begin
Again and again…
I ask myself why?

Don’t go cold on me Brain

I don't believe what I am going through
I can’t go anywhere
I can’t hold my head up
I can’t breathe in the air
and yet I'm not officially dead

I still have a heart
Does it remember to beat?
It rides my thoughts past my dreams
And ask me, if I still can breath
I want Love, I want to know it so bad

Don't go cold on me brain
I need you now more than ever
We can work it out together
Oh, I'm a wiser man
Im planning to use my head again
My heart always getting me into trouble
I need a new plan
I need you here on the double

Don't go cold on me brain
The squeak needs a wheel
Don't go cold on me brain
You got to know how it feels
I'm so into success,

I swear that it's true
But there's always something

bringing me down
It's wrecking my home,

I want to bury the pain
Forty miles beneath the ground.

There goes my soul

kicking up a landslide
Close shave now

my brain’s back on the flipside
Stretch Limo going to

fly me to Hollywood Bowl
It's a bitch Jack

when you need some feedback
You hang while they hold you
and you never get the respect
But they like you best
when you're down in luck with the rest.

Don’t go cold on me brain
I've got a feeling
I’ve been so confused
There's something that you've been hiding
Deep inside me
I know you got some damage
I know what you've been through
But there's nothing I can't manage.

Don’t go cold on me Brain
Oh, you seem a little nervous
understand you are not alone
All of the things I never did,
I was waiting for the right time,
All of the things I never said,
I was waiting for the right line.

Don’t go cold on me Brain
You told me When is the right time,
I'd be waiting all my life,
And I don’t care who sees,
And I don’t care who tells who
I wish the whole world knew,
Im lost in heart and now my brain
wants to go cold

Brain I had nowhere left to go,
I was waiting for the right sign,
Sometimes my heart says the right thing
And calms my feelings down
It was time to cross that line,
All of this time I didn’t know,
That you were getting Cold.
Let me take me all the way,
Why, should I hide,
When you're me,
Its the only time, Im alive,
I have a brain and a heart.

Center of Me

Life is just complex
Simplicity for the lucky
Everybody's worried about tomorrow
Will they see all they dream
I'm just trying to get my mind off today
Mama said tomorrow ain't promised
So I'm trying to live like it's my very last day

You can't spend your life
Being in fear of all that may be
You got to press on,
you got to be free!
Bounce with me tonight
Get low with me on this poetry
Put the choke up in the sky
and let the rain fall for you

Everybody's worried about the negative
Looking at the worst of things
I'm just trying to celebrate the small desires
Papa said be young while you can be young
Life only gets rougher
I'm just trying to keep my youth alive
but its getting tougher

I won't be held down
With all the things
that happened in the past
I Pray that the sun
shines in the window
Like it did on Thursday
Wont sleep the night
before ill be up
just wondering my life

Chase the stars
as they fall down
and light up where you are
They are yours for the keeping
Trace the curves of the streets
find a path to your peace

Pressed against the clouds,
eyes wide open...
Peel away my skin just a little more
You can let me in just a little more
Can you taste it, I do
When you bite down on the truth
I know it hurts real bad to lay it open
I've tried so hard myself
to make it go away
Cut right down to the soul,
to the center of me
In the middle of a house,
in the middle of nowhere
Bodies glide from room to room
I hate these walls
They speak to me
and no one else to back me up.

Not in the science

Brain to soul
Over emphasize your goal
what is that for?
Vein to artery, torn and sore
Carpet so thick yet worn
Blanketed with stains, dark and cold.

Calm myself
my Blood's on fire
Break the bed, burn the desire
Head to head, twisted, sore
Accidents, never warned
Can't explain, nevermore

It's not in the spark
That's not in my eyes
Like I used to laugh
It's not in the phrase
That's not in the language
That I used to talk

Its not in the science
That I didn't learn
When I used to argue
Its not in the sound
Woke me up, now you're around
Pick me up, drag me around

It's not in the dead shocks
That dropped underneath me
Its not in the strings
I didn’t pull to move

Pacing a faceless journey
I am not outside,
I am not inside,
Where do I go?
Here's to the hard times
I try so hard
And never will my dreams crack
where I walk
in a straight line
I know it takes longer
but it's going straight up
I close my eyes
Nothing to see in this town
And when you see the big crack in the sunlight
You know it's over somehow
And then a pinhole in the sky starts to expand
as the fire inside of me grows.

AMBER

They never tell you truth is subjective
They only tell you not to lie
They never tell you
There's strength in vulnerability
They only tell you not to cry

But I've been living underground
Sleeping on the way
And finding something else to say
Is like walking on the freeway
They never tell you about pain
you don't need to be ashamed
They only tell you to deny

So is it true that only the good go to heaven?
And if that’s the case
Then will I see her again
They only sell you what you buy
Trying not to get lost in the lie
And finding something else to learn

When the light turns into darkness
Lend me a whole new world
If cancer takes Amber
I would loose love to this world

In the whirlpool, we'll go deeper
In this world that's getting cheaper
Oh I hate this feeling
Feels like forever lost
Magic maker, wish me one wish
Hold me to your light
take away her cancer again

I shiver, you shake it
you said she could make it
Don't know, am I dreaming
When I am down and my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up

so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up

to walk on stormy seas;
I look forward to see you at the door;
You cheer me up... and I crawl down
to play with you on the floor

There is no life

no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But then you come

and I am filled with wonder;
Sometimes I think, I glimpse eternity.

still life moves on

I walked down by the river where I used to go
And underneath the bridge where I used to hide
The old town that I knew is dead and gone
Gone!!
The sickly sun shines grayly through the smog
The poisoned river waters flow
For some of us still life moves on

Our future is just a relic of the past
Somewhere behind the concrete and the glass
The monuments of worlds sacred life
Where all the human beings feel the same
They used to live round here

but now they're gone
For some of us life moves on

If I wore your shades

could I share your point of view?
Could I make you feel better?
Paint a picture, write a poem?
I hear what you're saying
But have you noticed
The children stop playing

It's cold and it's going to get colder
You watch things get worse as you get older
in company respect's not shown
mutual into it's own,
indifference although when alone
true feeling's begin to show,
honesty overflows our thoughts
sometimes its better to be blind
and trust has no gleam and it can't be seen

overbearing panic attack entrenching veins
in an hour thousands more in pain

I pray that war will go away for good
I've seen more than...
I should have to...

reoccurring drowning effect entrenching the brain,
confusion is raining down
like it never did before
As the Green House affect is setting in
in case of fire,
Break the glass

and hope you can reset it all

I’m trying to scream but I can’t breathe…
Can anybody hear me?
I’m trying to dream but I can’t sleep…
Can anyone shield me?
I shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself
and still life moves on.

Someone told me…

Sometimes some words
the first time you heard
stay in your skin
Someone told me once
"You're never going to win"
Fool's paradise is where I've always been
So I told myself
"I've got a heart of stone"
Not that strong I said
But I will do it
If I have to all alone

Tell me your dreams
And I'll tell you what they mean
Said the lady in the night
because we live and love to learn
and for every second
we waste on lack of trust
all promises will be gone

You can't touch hope
You can't hold dreams
finding me through your window panes
I can reach you
I can see you
Trying to hide your tears away

Someone told me
"You got to let it go"
A little weakness is strength
So I tell myself
"Feeling' left today"
I won't lose to the pain of yesterday

All Over With

All over with
A second to an eye blink
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders
Run for the fence
they are coming, they are killers,
They want to change the faces
Believe in yourself
Let go of ego strengthen within your soul

a soldier was asked in the war in Iraq
Tell us about your mission
The soldier replied
“I'm killing, every fucking thing
until somebody gets the point,
the point I was told to make.
I lead, the mice on a parade,
Down to the river of US Aid,
and open up the flood gates
and hope the water will bring them hope.
But I needed a barrel of medicine
a convention for business deals
better schools and roads
but they gave me a barrel of Cyanide;
and told me to spread democracy
until the whole damn world can see
and then we can Start it all over again.
That’s my mission, Sir! ”

Stop talking, negotiating,
Your feeble attempts towards world peace,
Give me a break
Need world-wide genocide,
planetary suicide and when the whole damn world is dead...
there's your fucking peace
All over with.

You, by my side.

Well it's you and it's me
Me with a drink in my hand
The ice is tinkling like a broken band
As late afternoon settles over the land
And you're talking about things
Interesting just slightly
And things that matter too much
To say any way but lightly

Well it's time to be wise
Wise in the ways of the heart
To come out from under the covers
This involuntary state of apart
From the faces, oasis
In this Sahara of sorrow
These graces that hold me
It's from you that I borrowed

I need not to need
Or else a love with intuition
Someone who reaches out to my weakness
And won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
But now I feel like the flower
trying to bloom in the snow

I turned up the light
Anticipating night falling tenderly around me
Watching the dusk
The words won't come
I carry the act so convincingly
The fact is sometimes I believe it myself

Strange how you know inside me
I measure the time and I stand amazed
Strange how I know inside you
My hand is outstretched

toward the damp of the haze

And of course I forgive
I've seen how you live
Like an eagle you rise from the ashes
You pick up the pieces
And the ghosts in the attic

You've seen how I live
I've got darkness and fears to appease
My thoughts and analogies
Ambitions like ribbons
Worn bright on my sleeve

I fit into you
There's a distance erased with the greatest of ease
you fit into me
A gentle warmth filling the deepest of needs

And with each passing day
The stories we say
Draw us tighter into our addiction
Confirm our conviction
That some kind of miracle
Passed on in our way
And how I am sure
Like never before
Of my reasons for defying faith
Embracing the seasons
We dance through the colors

Strange how certain the journey
Time unfolds the petals
For our eyes to see
yet this journey's hurting
In ways we accept as part of fate's decree

So we just hold on fast
Acknowledge the past
As lessons exquisitely crafted
Painstakingly drafted
To carve ourselves instruments
That play the music of life
For we don't realize
How swiftly we choose it
The sacred simplicity
Of you at my side.

The moon below

Life comes with halo of ashes
Specter of the wind
Waits on me so patiently
hoping that i will quit
Sky lies a thousand miles above
Stars shine and the moon is clear
Nothing and for no one
Won't see me, if sadness wasn’t here

My depression pulls me closer
As my poison it crawls through
Walks with me so silently
I no longer can refuse
Tomorrow I'm a thousand miles behind
Stars shine and the moon below
Wake me where you find me
Pretend you don't know

Bite the thorn that pierced the skin
Come back down to Earth again
The cold is creeping deep inside
I killed the last way out of this
Persuaded by deceitful thoughts

All these dying days
I walked the LA city
Used to be my dream
Now I cant find a way out
I seen a holy man
Seen him crying with the mother Mary
Sleeping alone, I stay on my side.

Take a minute just to breathe
Take a minute till I'm wide awake
I am searching once again
And the sun has left the sky
And the moon below start to glow

Let the silence creep in
In the silence I'm awake all night
Just searching once again
But could I reach hope in the morning light
If I close my eyes
would it all just change?

You make my mind
Just want to leave this world behind
And I don't know why
It's taken everything
Everything I've got and it's hung me on a line
Water rising up over me
And I think I'm going to drown

the longest way I traveled
From the darkness to the light
And these prisons, I can't abide
and forever im lost below the moon.

Train Ride

.

When the train pulls in the station
I'll be waiting by the track
You're having trouble sleeping nights
you want me to come back
That old train will roll on by

and go off track and come my way
If I am slow and miss the chance

the train will hit me head on

she says ”I don't say I love you

quite enough I know "‘
Sometimes It goes for days
The train moves so fast

and the words come so slow
And she lets those excuses

get in the way

While you sleep sometimes
I lie awake and watch you breath
In the silence that surrounds the dead of night
I keep remembering things I forget to say
And perhaps someday you let me know your way
As the train pulls to the station
I step back and go home.

Silence is Loud

Waited patiently for you to call me
Across the great divide of the moments
that have slipped by
All the long and lonely nights
I lay bathed in pale moonlight
Upon the floor I cried
a cold and empty space
it's time to let it go
It is time to break the hold
So I'm giving up the mention of faith
And I'm giving up the vision of luck
I'm forgiving everyone that hurt me
I am Giving up the ghost
I don't search to find a cure
I don't do that anymore
I learned to lay the blame
on the strangers in the world
We were just one step away
from a truth I couldn't face
But I hoped against it all
that history would break our ways
So I prayed for love to save us
and I wished upon a star
But my wish didn’t go too far

It's time to be brave
And you tried to show me how
Well I'm listening to you now…….
Your silence its too loud

Something Bad Enough

You always give me something
To help me understand
Turn those tracks around me
And make me a better man
But all you give is killing me
I can't turn time around
I'm getting loaded
on a darker side of town

When I was just a boy
I've done too much
I understood the rules back then
Now I can't decide
my luck's run out
My head is burned
Whatever I once was
Is fading fast away
My soul is like a shadow
Growing fainter in the day
I've never felt so confused
and you feel so out of reach
My life is like a sun
Sinking slowly in the beach

What I got
Is Who I am
In this world of right and wrong
The hardest part is beginning
By the time you find
where you belong
You're either losing or winning

Well I don't know how
But people seem to know
When you want
something bad enough
It always comes true

Love Make Me Strong

Cold winds rarely blow
Here at the end of the road
Guess it's not hard to believe
I am not willing to leave
Dont wake me from this dream
I felt hope standing there
I turned around and it was gone
Saw the face of an angel
and I knew she was the one

My head was saying this is the girl
My heart agreed
My minor desires turned to major needs
Somehow I'm thrilled by all I hear
High on your campaign promises
I don't want to come down
But no promises kept
Like the loneliness that comes
when I lay alone in bed

I'm in heaven when she is around
I'm going to tell everybody I see
she is a part of me
and there's no power capable of
Coming between us
dividing our love
To be faithful I have sworn
Together we can weather the storm

Our tomorrows are a day away
Our hands are tied
we're victims of fate
In my darkness I will pray
For destiny to send you my way

Love make me strong
Give me the strength to carry on
A tower of strength to lean upon
The seven seas won't keep us apart
Not with an ocean of love in my heart
My devotion will see me through
Because nothing's going to keep me from you

Oh it's a happy story
True lovers found each other
raised to all it's glory
You'll hear the sound of beating hearts
as love makes us stronger
And warms our heart.

Not just another man

Started something
How can you see it through
Taken a certain something
That's fallen away from the truth
I can see lost in your eyes
Do you know where you're going
Do you know where you go,
There's no way of knowing
Its always hard to find
When you've left your words behind

I love myself
I want you to love me
When I'm feeling' down
I want you above me
I search myself
I want you to find me
I forget myself
I want you to remind me
I get stormy
When you think of me

as just another man
I get steamed up
When you ignore me

Hand me a prayer book
I need to be forgiven
I'm not even driven
I'm ready to start giving
I've got a burning fire in me
A potential for sin
Inspiration from the devil

Merlin in your castle
Cast me a spell
Conjure up some magic
That you do so well
Witches in your towers
Mix me a potion rare
Please use all your powers
to get me out of here
High priestess of the voodoo
Please reverse this curse
That causes me so much hurt

I missed the point

.

When I'm walking down the emotions
I call your name for help
Inside my head I go insane
Trying to put things back in place
There were days when I went completely blind
No time to think and I lost a lot of time
Won't believe what's happened to me lately

everyday it's the same day
Different faces with no names
Places I've never been before
And everyday it's the same thing
And I begin to wonder
How I will get out of this phase
And every time I think I'm breaking free
These thoughts return to trouble me
a sinner but I tell you I am a saint
Too fast I tripped and lost my faith

The summer's over
I never noticed
Did you really think it all can end?
This morning Was feeling colder
many years older
Did you really think times be so bad?

It scares me sober
climbing these walls
One after the other
I struggled through the winter
Just to dream of what it might become
Woke up to find it will never come

I have lightning in my heart
If the stars dry out to guide me
I have soft clay
to build a statue of pride
What a miracle they say
Dark clouds gather
Velvet holes
Gaping wide over night
And they pour it down
And they sing to me
telling me things will be alright
And I'm sorry
That I missed the point
at this moment in time
But I'm grateful
even though hard times always come.

The answer

The lightning flashed
as the devil laughed
Rode roaring thunder inside the clouds
That answer scared me into tears
That’s when I realized
the grownups knew it all along

Now the years roll on
tired voices have all gone
Now they ride their dreams in the heavens

There's a world in every drop of rain
Embracing oceans evaporate to life
Seek the truth, you shall not find another lie

They say for every living thing
There's a guide up in the sky
That helps you pass from world to world
So you never really die

Then with bad diet and smoking
Death comes waltzing to your side
As the visions pass you ask
If there was meaning to your life
As you strain to hear the answer
Spirits sing, and devils fiddle
As he bends to whisper in your ear
He leaves you one more riddle

Oh, the answer lies beyond the pain
All the questions in our minds
The vision of the blind
Is where you find what you want

Confusion is like a storm
Growing stronger every moment
Like the unrelenting wind
So I live each day like I know it's my last
If there is no future there must be no past

Now I know the answers never meant a thing
with each instant that I breathe
I feel the joy that life can bring
And I don’t need an answer for that.

With Open Arms

Do you feel you've been disowned,
Left outside in the cold
without a home?
Do you think that no one cares
That you're lost and alone
Don't lose heart, there is hope,

If this world is a lonely place
Fall into the arms of love.
Are you looking for a friend
Who will stand by your side to the very end?
Someone who is always true to Her word,
Watch each other get old.
She hears your cry, She wipe your tears,
She knows your pain and all your fears.
She waits for you with open arms,
She longs to live inside your heart
You'll never be alone again.

Born to Bleed

I couldn't close my eyes,
I stayed up all night
I thought of promises
that broke me down to my knees
I take no prisoners
I have no demands

Too many unanswered questions, so many times
Most times the finger points at me
In my confusion, I might slip and cross the line
you can't help me it's in my soul
pray for mercy, nowhere else to go

Swimming hard and fast
against the fire
lost in a flood
of ancient heat
I just know it, I can feel it
there's something in the air
maybe the moon just gave up and fell
something's not quite right
my heart feels so empty
my mind's so full of doubt

Sometimes I feel I was born to be in pain
sometimes I feel I was born to die of need
I ache at the thought of another day like this
I can't shake the feeling that I'm
born to bleed

Love likes to play with me
it drives me wild
it hurts me really deep
and I don't know why
I see the trouble
and I feel the danger
Is my heart beating for a heartless stranger?

I'm freezing cold
and its getting colder
I'm losing hope
I can't wait no longer
If I could read everyone’s mind
I wouldn't come around here no more

You better know that I'm losing my head
And where I go love will never come back
Well you've watched the sun set on the seven seas
dined in the company of killers and queens
you think there isn't much that you haven't done
you've tasted everything that can turn you on
there used to be innocence in your eyes
Till you realized you were born to bleed.

No one else

.....................................

In your life you seem to have it all
You seem to have control
But deep within your soul
You're losing it…
You never took the time
Assumed that you're to blame
They think that you're insane

I know the breakdown
Everything is going to shake now
Tell me again, am I awake now
You can find the reason
no one else is living this way

Your Dreams
Your world is built around
Two faces to everyone
The voices in your head
Think there is a better way
Well in this conflict
Fate has found the need
So you better trust yourself
Before you fall to the ground

If you find yourself
Then you might believe
Then within yourself
You just might conceive
that no one else is you

It's been a long time
since you felt this way
Do you hear what I am trying to say
Cause I can hear it
Cause I grew up this way
And if I'm hurt I'll fight it
I'll crawl out of my cave
That's how I'll make it
Cause out of all this hurt
Innocence still survives

In the morning you can see the sights
Its so much harder to keep up at night
In the day light you can see inside
yourself and all the things

darkness was trying to hide
Lost in time
No one else minds

Im going Mad

It's another season
One of the four I don't like
I'm too tired to even try to write
But I will….
There's no where else to go
There are scars too deep to heal alone
Funny how people think

it's easy to want the way out
But its not
These things you think of
when your facing hard times
Why do you think the world has crashed
Into Mercury at last
Don't you understand
Time has never been this mad

Winter's city side
I had no illusions
That I'd ever find a glimpse
Of this secret perfect life
summer's heat waves in your eyes
Neon on my naked skin
Passing strange illuminated mannequins
Shall I stay here at the zoo
Or shall I go and change my point of view

I'm falling to pieces
But I put my request into god
I wrote - would you drink the sea
If yelling has dried up your hope

Then I would have a way to drive away
Then I would have a road and I could go today
On the wisdom bus heading into town
I'll pay the fare to be a believer
I've rode imagination straight into the ground
And I got to know what I got to know by now
Power's acquired
But I'm just bewildered

the same with the madness
Love kisses hate
Hate spits back all of its

tenderness with all its sadness
And when I get lost they say its madness.

Romantic Night

There's a place I know

about where the dirt road runs out
And we can try out the four-wheel drive
Come on now

what do you say
I can hardly wait to get

a little mud on the way

'Cause it's a good night
To be out there soaking' up the moonlight
Stake out a little piece of shoreline
I've got the perfect place in mind
Moonlight on a duck blind
Catfish on a trot line
Sun sets about seven this time of year
We can throw a blanket down
Crickets singin' in the background
And more stars than you can count

on a night this clear
I tell you what we need to do

is grab a sleeping' bag or two
And build us a little campfire
And then with a little luck

we might just get stuck
And hold each other warm

till the morning light .

Faith

..........................
Some believe this world
is bound to get much better
They think utopia is just around the bend
They'd like humanity
to come up with the answers
So they can keep their heads

safely buried in the sand

.
This is my Father's world and He can fix it
Our hopeless days are all about to change
Not looking for a perfect world
But one that is better

.
Some still worship Mother Nature in her glory
They do a good thing
when they stand up for her right
But Mother Nature has a Father in the heavens
And His creation went to chaos

but never left His sight

.
The old will pass away and bring a new birth
A whole new heaven and a new earth
You are tied-in and networked
You've got people to see
You have friends in high places
You've got places to be
plenty of time to make your mark

.
It's all about who you know
When you get to the end

and you've got nothing to show
But a blank stare, there in your easy chair
You watched as things got out of hand
But now your eyes blink and you begin to think
Of what could happen if you stand

.
You think about the ground
you might have lost in this round
Your eyes are open to the things
that had you bound
And then you rise up from your sleep
and put your foot down

.
You take one final grasp of air
and seal life with the promise to stand firm
but not on your own
We have no power all alone
But you can feel safe there with your shield of faith
The inner strength in you has grown

.
Stand all alone if there's no one around you
Stand on your own
Stand up tall - stand or fall
Stand your ground - don't stand down
Never perfect
Finding courage
To seal with the promise
perfectly forgiven soul

A life on every face

Over The Sea
I'd write you a letter
But who knows where it would go
Something sad and hopeless
Tells me what I should know
And if you leave me by myself
Who knows what I would do
Something tall and mindless
Let's me walk right through

Sometimes you want to depend on
Something to brighten up your coldest winter day
But not all the dreams come true
I Let me down, its time to move on
That’s every ones blues
And morning brings

another empty day

a broken down angel
a bird that’s broke her wing
we are all someone
a child that’s lost the way

simple pleasures
A breath of spring to chase the pain away
No sunshine in giving up
just clouds of gray
Such a shame to forget about love

A life on every face
Number me with rage
This eagerness to change the dice decide my fate
In these trembling times

my faith tells me to react
I've said I'm wrong

when I've been right
I've seen times when I've been sure
but still I find myself wrong

there reasons everybody pays
They never seem to find another choice
Don't look back until you've tried
With time you'll endlessly fade
See my eyes

tell me I'm lying
Tell me whats this on my face.

The Next Big Thing

Music today isn't the way it's supposed to be
yet it plays all day on the radio
You like what you're told
And if you know what's good then you'll agree

If someone comes to tell you who you are
Someone to tell you who to be
Someone to show you what you see
You tell them NO, I’m the next big thing

You go to the store and
It's the same brands stacked on each other
You've heard it before but its all on the cover
How low can you go?
To be the next big thing?
The Answer is In The Question

Wonder and complete surprise
It's all seen through blind eyes
Tired, lonely and afraid
Every card's been played

So where do we go?
Love, hate, life and certain death
All in just one breath
Mixed up, straight down, opened, closed down
Created, then unwound
And this is true I've got to see life in another way
To be the next big thing
I must make a change in me

I might be a fool to think
that I can change this world
I'm pretty foolish anyway
I've been planning to bring humanity back
And so far things have gone my way
Some would say tomorrow

is just one step closer to death
I'd say tomorrow is just one step closer to life
And understanding and to know

it's going to be alright

So in conclusion

have I made my decisions clear?
With every passing moment of my life this year
Well not exactly

so that's what I am going to change

Would it be right to say

that no one ever truly listens?
Or takes the time

to understand what something means
Without opinion, bias, without a one-track mind
What can be done

to change a habit born in our minds?
First step to the truth is to take

the lost out of our eyes
And then to wonder, enjoy life
maybe even give it a try
The next big thing

is waiting inside of me

and cant wait to come out.

Peace in Mind

Got a bad record with life
I can't cross state of minds
First on the bad list
And last on every try
Looking for a scapegoat
Long past due
im ready to make it
Walking down the tries
Staring straight at problems
And give it all I got
I run outside at nights and
I hear myself screaming
where do I hide?
And all I get for a reply
is a gentle voice
screaming back
hurry inside
He said, she said...
No I didn’t know
go home without saying bye
And you know I won't let it go
Well I remember those nights
Like yesterday
And I remember my loneliness
As she dragged it away
A whole lot of memories...
yours and mine
And all I asks for
is a peace in mind.

The only one left standing

Good morning it's a warm Day
says the guy on the radio…
Feels like a good day in every way

With my Possum breath
Tired tales, tired eyes
Tired bones, tired thighs
Dreams shot as I ran through the night
Deep sleep to lonely drums

Things are all right
My mind's a miss
My smile is toxic, my gait is fix
And I say as one man to another
The only thing I hope to never see
Is another man like me
Playing me
Just like me

I got a hole in my heart the size of a truck
It won't be filled by a one night fuck
Slurping and squeezing ain't it just my luck
The devil tried to fill me up
but my down was high
As the sky is up
that just is life

They're mating like apes in the zoo
One for all and one for you
Wouldn't it just be lovely
Another useless night in bed
by the Los Angeles River
The rollerblades giving head

You know me I use to dance
Move my body in to a trance
I'm the only one left standing
To the beat with no flow
You know me I like to drink
And carry on Over to 5 A.M.
Sun and the moon is shining

Sitting on a curb I throw a rock
At the passing meat market truck
It's just my luck
I'm the only one left standing

Another useless night chasing dreams
Pass by the River as they are getting head
Don't know how I'm still here
Strong and fearless in the outside air
I'm the only one left standing
I'm the only one

Open Mind

I am seeing tunnel vision

in a world that's dark and cold,
I cannot believe how much I've changed
And I get wiser as I get old
And I question trust with every soul
I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight,
I cannot believe I lost control of fate,
I need forgiveness from the people I truly care
I need support behind my back
To give me strength when I am scared

Contradiction's the way of life
In your mirror's reflection
What you don't like about you
is what you hate in life
You should see through others eyes…
Sometimes I get so frustrated
Haunting visions in the back of my mind

I try to make an impact
Through truth as well as poetry
I overcome thoughts and leave an etched memory,
It's my gift my intentions, are only well
Always in the correct way, you can tell

but you have to see it

to believe it
An open mind is hard to find

Painful Memories

Need for more mode shift
Slip in one more stick shift
Pack your bags then burn the memories

.
More or less the same story
the pain, then blame someone else
You shove it in
and then you pull it out
You lift the lid
and watch it spill out.

Once written in the stars
A pathway set in stone
Like a candle in the night
To guide your way back home
Then somewhere in your memory
It's daring you to see
what it is that's written in the stars…

The prophecy fulfills
The dream that never dies
A shooting star lights up the sky
while the earth stands still
And somehow we lose sight
while following the car in front of our eyes

In search of painful memories
So I can figure where I stand
A timeless and forgotten place
The moon and sun in endless chase
Each in quiet surrender
As the other reigns the sky…

The midnight hour begins to laugh
A summer evening's filled with noise
The Memories are getting crazy
As a storm in me begins to rise…

Painful memories were the times that came
In a thunder that cause me pain
Nothing ever could contain
The rising of the storm…

In the wings of agony
Darkened waves fill the hate
Wild winds of warning
Echo through my tears

Memories seems to come from everywhere
Welcome to the dragons lair

as my hair turns to grey

Hell can have no fury
Like a painful Day.

CoNtRoL this life
*************
Time, where did you go
Why did you leave me behind
Wait, don’t go so fast
I’m missing the moments as they pass

.
Now I’ve looked in the mirror
Like they said
And the world’s getting clearer
But wait for me this time
I’m down on my luck
I’m begging for all your time
But to the world I’m just an illusion

I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I want to do is be me
I don’t know why I was so afraid
All the time
Memories seemed to bother me
My whole life

.
I don’t know why I was so lost
Such a waste of time
Now I’m going to make this moment mine
I shouldn’t have wasted those days
But I still don’t know who I’m trying to be
All those dreams are gone
And new ones are hard to find
Oh and there’s always something
Or somebody right behind
Take a second to think about it
And its gone

.
Well we’re not meant to be everything
but the race is on
It feels like I’m out here on my own
the only thing keeping me happy Is my girl
Please pick up the phone

when I call
I’m hiding from the cold
Inside the dark silent room
You left me all alone

and went back home
.
I’m deep inside my soul
But I can’t find my way
I’m hiding from the moment
That makes everything alright
I run away from it all
But can’t turn the page
I knew it all along
Its hard for me to change
Now I’m floating endlessly
Unpacking all my dreams
Funny how we worry
We can’t control this life.

Inner self

my mind has been shut down
my friends have let me down
what is the reason
there's millions of lies

.

single me out
tear off my front
make me expose what I conceal
life is a bullet
the bloodstains prove it
it's tearing through you and me
you try to hide
but it finds you

.

now I could explain everything
but you know it well
you cursed the fire
now we all in hell
blindfold me now
spin me around
kicking me down
when Im on top of it all

.

today I feel blue
my head is in the clouds
God help me separate it all
my soul from my heart
my fears from my dreams
my tears from my smile
my pain from my joy

.

fed-up ,tired
sick and twisted
one-man army
I’m enlisted
trust yourself
trust no one else

.

in a daze
these days go by
faster and faster I speed through life
now I’ve got to take control
of my mental and my physical
never sheltered from life's hard storms
sometimes it gets cold but it also gets warm

.

searching and finding the truth inside
I was born with nothing
I’ll die with everything
I’ve come to a point
where I just don't give a fuck
my skin is thick
thick and calloused
I’m ready to fight this fight….

The END

....................

Journalists, Politicians and Women,
Anyone who has a voice and would speak
Has either been silenced or been threatened

Their voices become reluctant and meek
As Bush becomes supreme
Religion forcing its’ will on the weak,

As the media tells them what to think.

Brotherly love is lost and so it seems
Everything is sacrificed for power.
Beneath the surface resentment still grows,

As humanity goes farther.

So the Republicans will be stronger.
As the world see their free speech banned
And the Bush regime turns to rape and torture

So that now blood and fear will rule the land.
Freedom’s lost to any passing man
Since it was only written in the sand

the end will only end.

She Cries..

.

And she cries, when the rain begins to fall
and she hides, from the shadows on the wall,
cause she knows, there is nothing she can do
to make her family understand her love

She lives for him,
he is her only sin,
she prays to God,
that things would change
And she drives to his house most every day
and she lies to them so she could stay

and she begs him to stop his way

She has a dream

she wants it to come true,
she's living in a house

with nowhere point of view,
no, nobody knows what she's been through,
she'll do anything he wants her to,
There's not really much else she can do.
and she cries...and she cries...and she cries.

.

Hunger

Everything right is wrong again
Just like in the busy city
All the people suffering
the cars kept driving
And nobody would stop to save a soul

Wake me when it's over, touch my face
Tell me hunger has been erased
Don't you want to know the reason
Why some children suffer
Don't you get the feeling
Its time to end world hunger

Everything that's wrong is right again
We have overcome with regards to no one
overcame but not before the damage is done
The healing doesn't stop the feeling
The feeling does not feed the children

Every movement false, every four is waltz again
Every five and dime's been gained and spent
Tell me how many souls can we feed my friend
Draw the line dividing laugh and scream
You know everything that I know ,so I know
You've heard the voice that makes the silent laugh
And now the poem is over
and poverty still grows

Beg for Love

Life takes a little piece of you away
Most everyday of your life
learn to get wise, you learn to compromise
You learn to criticize yourself

we all grow up one day at a time
seems so further from the truth at this moment
And you try to find yourself in this endless race

Love takes another stab at your heart
And you can never cease to escape
And you take it on the chin
that old sucker punch again

Reminds you what you've missed
When the colors blazed and your jealousy raged
You were so sensitive to every touch
And it is not to forget in this endless tear
So you find a perfect stranger
but always have to Beg to get near

What do you get in the end
Did you really need that friend
Your emotions dulled to save your heart
From failing at the hardest part
But you still get down on your knees
I said you get down on your knees
And you beg for her again

Now there's nothing left to laugh at
Nothing left to say
nothing left do
so there's no reason to prey
But you still get down on your knees- and beg

Together we can change

We must talk to every soul
Get eaten off the web
We must rip out all the happy endings
in the books that we have read
And in the face of every criminal
Strapped firmly to a chair
We must stare at our own fears
And let him live scared

We must give away the medicines
too expensive to sell
Set fire to the preacher who is promising us hell
And in the ear of every democrat
that sleeps but doesn’t dream
We must sing, we must sing.

While the rain waters the grass
young heroes are loading their guns
they says death will give us back to god
Just like the setting sun is returned to the lonesome hope
as it splashes into the deep blue sea
It was a wonderful splash

We must blend into one voice
memorize all the words
and never deny we have a soul
And in this endless race for property and power
We must run away from all the desires

We must hang up in the roof tops
Where the bats and moonlight laugh
We must stare into a crystal ball and only see the past
And in the caverns of tomorrow
With just our flashlights and our love
We must plunge in to change
and let all dreams come live

And then mornings will come back
The whole world’s waking up
In the city traffic is swimming past
I’m happy just because change is on the way
the worst that we can do
is pretend nothing is wrong
And dream of a life
where we all belong

The ocean speaks and spits and I can hear it so clear
I’m screaming at my self on my cell phone
I’m saying nothing in the past but future will change today
Now I’m hunched over my computer
I guess you call that painting in a cave
And there are words I can’t remember
And a feeling I cannot escape
with my ashtray overflowing
and morning at my window sending me to bed

So we must find our fears and face them
we’ll kick and scream or kneel and bleed
And so I thought I’d let you all know
That these things take forever
and change will come only together.

No one Listens

Tossed into my mind, stirring the calm
splash of reality pulls me down
It comes out of nowhere
Turns my glance to a stare
Addiction rules me-I'm weak from the start
One minute here and one minute there
Don't know if I'll laugh or cry
two minutes passed
And then I see you wave good-bye.

Sifting to the bottom, every day for gold
All energy funnels as I see myself get old
And it hurts inside
Back and forth, I sway with the wind

holding my emotions close
Right through my fingers, back into my heart
Where it's out of reach and it's in the dark

Sometimes I think I'm blind
Because the plot thickens every day
And the pieces of my puzzle keep crumbling away
But I know, there's a picture beneath it all
This fear clouds of my vision
No one listens...

You see, I'm somewhere in between
As I put me together
my ears block the sound they hear
My eyes shut tight to avoid a tear
Droplets of "yes" and "no"
In an ocean of "maybe"
From the bottom, it looks like a steep incline
From the top, another downhill slope of mine
And I know, No one listens

Awakened by the sun light
Victimized by last night’s scream
Recollections drifting
as my memories disappear
Each minute the confusion grows
If I could just lay down to rest
I'm tired of searching for myself
I encountered a darkness stronger than sleep
I am thirsty for peace
There are no answers anyway...
And no one listens to me.

Thankful Man

I was a blue collar man
Working hard to make ends
I showed up when I didn't want to be there
A man of my word,

I believe in doing things right
I remember when I was younger
I heard the elder say

time and time again
It's a good life; it's a real good life
Always be a thankful man

I'm a thankful man alright
thankful for every turn
On every highway with

all its ups and downs
Every mile I've lost,

I gained a friend along the way
Every storm that turned me around
Made me a better man in so many ways
So far this life is out of me
Yet It's made me who I am
It's a good life And I'm truly a thankful man

People say that I am a dreamer
But I don’t remember my dreams
all along I needed a rock that I could lean on
all I got was me
I learned about the lessons in life
The difference between what's right and wrong
And every word that I said
I heard myself said it once
And all along nothing made sense
But to be a thankful man.

Valentine’s Day

She gave Him all Her love
And He recognize it more on this day
She gave it all and never faded away
Well He is going to kiss unread words
And escape the jungle free
In his arms tonight
He will hold Her tight
Feeling the pain release

Like an Elephant Man
He will dance the night with love
Inside Their warm thoughts
They Wish this day never ends
Rose pedals all over the bed
So if she should feel a bit surprised
If the shooting star
Is dancing in front of her eyes
embrace yourself today
He wants Her love to stay
He is not as hard and crazy as He used to be
Still He prays to God
for giving her to him
So she offers him a place to rest
and forget his pains this day
In her arms tonight
she will bring him peace
As He gently gives her a valentine kiss.

Between you And me

...................

They say the road of peaceful life
Is paved with good intentions
No matter how hard we try
Something’s just wont fall in to place
At moments of hard emotion time
Patience, we just have to wait
Little bit of faith can be the last hope
It's the only place that still exists

Between you and me
There's enough Love that I believe
We'll rise above it all and we'll get through
The screams your hear are in my ears
The tears you have are in my eyes
The pain you live with for love
are the reasons why I die every night
All for nothing
But what others want
They say that bridges burn
From one soul to another

if you don't tend the flame

it will burn away
I pray somehow they see it clear
To build an understanding from the ashes that remain

Not enough love can be dangerous
It's a change they need to see
There are times I don't feel safe
Like we're not on solid ground
But I trust your eyes
When I see you look this way
I know we’ll be just fine.

Someone will find the way

...................

Always thought the world revolved around love
And every word It said was listened to
How I could underestimate that promise
How could anyone really ever doubt the truth?

Our parents they raised us to be happy
They always try to give us everything we craved
They never let the ugly things affect us
They always made the bad things fade

But as we grow older
The troubles gathered around us
and everyone seems to care
What will I take from this situation?
how will I grow again?

is in everyones head

I believe this is temporary
It won't last forever, this pain

We have faced bigger challenges
And bigger setbacks in life

A wrist jerk reaction is waiting
For any who dare to oppose
Talk of war, always praised, conversations
Quickly turn enemies into bros

All of the promise but minus the knowledge
Why bother now that they teach thug life in college
corrupted culture, misguided intention
Freedom extinction almost guaranteed

So gifted and smart, everyone looks so pretty
But where is the danger in this over packed city?
Most of them never get past what's on TV
This demographic has a new obsession
This demographic thinks that Bush is cool

This demographic doesn't have a fucking clue

excuse my french but this is true

You say I'm bitter, I'm just afraid
I just resent my lack of faith
A shit load of talent, but there is no deep end
Forget about passion, there's none where I am
Follow a dream, what's the point?

what's the meaning?
Why does everybody want the same?
Will someone make it happen?
Take time and work it out
Will people stand together
and avoid this evil life
Spread the word
Somebody' needs an answer
Someone will find a way

Too Good to be True

I guess it's cause and effect
My heart and my soul
The way that I connect
I Keep digging these hole
There I go again
It never ends
But this time I will take the chance

at this moment of the day
Love is the only thing going my way
This time its good to be true
Give me one more kiss I beg
One more touch
I just can't get enough of you

All of a sudden
I'm not who I used to be
I had my heart locked
But now you hold the key
And you find a way, everyday
To show me even more
I wish sometimes you be more understanding
With what I’m going thorough

Some people say freedom is too good to be true
Cause they don't give honor
To loyalty and truth
At this second in life
I need a helping friend
And its not just anyone that can help me
Its my own strength.

CRazY

..............

I like to run in the rain
Without a rain jacket
Nor an umbrella to cover me from getting wet
But lately it's not the same
When everything has changed
And nothing seems crazy anymore.

But while your still near
And you still Have a chance
a hope appears
wanting to dance
They’ll try anything.
And they'll say all the things
that you wanted to hear...
But the words in my heart
Are better left unsaid.

To lie like the ghosts beneath my fears...
I go crazy but I've got nothing left to try
you're on your own tonight
I hear a whisper
You can't take back
Half of what you give
And you won't remember
Half the life you've lived.
But while you're still here,
I'll do anything
as long as you know
I’m crazy for life.

The Fire Inside of me..

.......

There is a fire,
These dreams that pass me by,
The salvation I desire,
Keeps making me try
'Cause I need to recognize my state,
For time and time again,
So let it be known,
For what I believe in,
I can see no reason,
For freedom to fade,
'Cause this life is as rare as it gets
I can't breathe through this mask,

I want out
So breathe on, little sister, Freedom

From this warm cell,
Lets just call it home
Testify or tell,
at times like this

it can only tell

the roof is on fire

we don’t give a sh*t
let the mother F*@ker burn!
Testify for that.

*B*A*D*.*B*O*Y*

.

you see yourself sitting
on top so self assured
but where is reality to bail you out?
you all the sudden became not so free
you're bored to tears at work,
it's not like what you thought at all.
This life of work and family
trouble is not the goal
But trouble goes where I go
The Devil toys with me
hoping his evil game will win.
in order not to loose,
the trick is not to play with him.
anything good I do
is added to my past
I will need it on the day
when someone wants to ask

I only want to say things that are pure
So my words are clear to all
I only want to do things that are true.
every time you move
I move
I want to learn what it is that I should do
to keep from hurting anymore?
cause I still feel hope
when I don't feel right,
and if most people fade to gray and black,
I’ll fade to white
I think too much and then I start thinking again
where did I get all these thoughts inside my head
I’ll change my ways today
when no-one is watching.
I shouldn't be sad or miss a grin.
doubt creeps deep and doubt creeps within
love skews the view from my cloud.
troublemaker tempting fate,
questioning the path I take,
fighting all the twists and turns,
the forks and points of no return.
I would hold my breath so long
to wash ashore where I belong.
dead roses is my name
like promises I never kept.
promises I never made.

Slow Day

.

Driving down the road
in what seems like a foreign town
and the streets and the sun
making my head go round
one eye in the mirror
as I drive down the road
with my foot slammed

on to the floor

well it has been so many years
that I’ve been running after dreams
and now I hardly know my name.
I can't stand the heat
running under cover
I’m running alone
From all the feelings
that I felt at home

so far away
on the longest day
still looking for the truth
or a place for peace
or a friend at the end
of a dead end street

I’ve been drinking on my own
and sleeping by myself
and I never knew
Where the road ever goes
could go so far to the east
it'll turn you cold
Kill your dreams
by the side of the road

some things will never change
some things I’ll never know
walking down the rocky road
without the stars in the sky
and one is one……
some days go too slow.

FREE

Blue shirt dark color shadow men
smoking through the bathroom stalls
they're going to meet
out on the dirt road at a quarter till nine
whispers echo through the walls

At the cross roads we meet again
lost in this passion of holding hand
If you're so bad, the big, big man
you'll be a big sensation then

Cool dudes think that love needs fermentation
high strong girls fighting over them
at the end of the road they don't care
if he's stuck on the side without a friend

I don't want to be a hero
I don't want to be a sheep
don't want to be misunderstood
but when it’s no good, it’s no good
Why can’t we all see?

We’re not BAD, we’re not FREE….

Humanity

.........

Maybe I’m a little distant
With this so called human life
Lost deep in poetry and hope
Sometimes my tears defies expression
in moments of pain I Can’t find the words
I Can’t get them out free
Sometimes I want to tell the world how I feel
But my anger gets in the way
Without peace sleeping by my side
So goes my childhood dreams

I’d be counting scars
Till the winter end
If that makes me some super star
So here I am with no words to fight
Naked in my plans
Baring my soul for all to see
I know at times that
I frustrate this system
I don’t mean to, I’m just human

Sometimes the world seems dark and grey
And I would collapse without a shining light
To live without peace would surely tear me apart
And I would sooner be a prisoner inside my own heart
As I see humanity walk away
Trying to sneak out of our way
I want to scream at it and beg it to come back
And then I realize Maybe I’m not so far…

Could've Been..

...........

If there was no tomorrow
Then tonight would never end
If we could freeze the hands of time
I wont stay here again

The flowers I left for you
Are just about to die
When I think about life
It makes me want to cry

The children dying
Didn't mean a thing
I guess our song is over
As we begin to sing

Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been a better world
Every day of our life

The whispers of Peace
Still linger in the air
Like the faded scent of the roses
They stay with me everywhere

Every time I get my hopes up
They always seem to fall
Still what could've been is better than
What we have done to all.

Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been a cure
for every pain of our life

Yet we choose to kill,
Still..

I Won't Look Back

I woke up screaming
Fuck the world till I die
I dreamt I got a call from a friend
Talking about how life is the best
That would be a good dream
If my friend wasn’t dead in mind…

“I said I'll call you later cause I really have to go
He said that’s not cool PJ,
Bros before hoes! don’t you know?
I can't be late, you’ll be okay
I got a date with a real hot flame, I said….”

I woke up from a nightmare
Where I was running down the street
Holding my friend on my shoulder while he bleed
Invisible and no one else could see me
I’m untouchable to pain
All my chances were gone on birth
I feel like going insane
I've had so many things to change
Afraid I wouldn't hurt
I should have done it all for love
But I choose a different path
You can be who you chose to be
But whether you do
whether you don't
Life will continue to grow
I'm looking for the Peace to find some rest
Because I'm not very sure Where I want to be
But if I choose to follow myself along the way
Then Maybe I won't look back
On those days I could have said something
I didn’t…
And those times when I was wrong
I wasn’t…
Maybe I Won't Look Back.

Hopelessness

the old man in the alley
begging me for some change
he could stand a little push
'cause he's got a better life to claim
but like my mom said
you only live till you're dead
and you got to give and give
but she never said till when
there's a pebble lost in the pond
going around and around
making waves and tides and ripples
as it tries to find its life
there's a leaf in the wind
that don't know where to end
chasing days and nights
and wishes and dreams
he can.
seems like everyone
is out looking for the same
singing rain and pain on he who wins the fame
but it'll shine when it shines the way I see it all
you might think I'm crazy
but I have learned what goes up will fall
in the dawn the feelings will be gone
and I’ve got one good night to rest
it's in my heart, not my head
leaving' fears and tears and troubles alone
just about a hundred years or so
that’s how long it takes to erase it all
a few men rode their way down the mighty power
and changed the path to all
and as I write about life’s journey
I couldn't help but cry
and I wish that I could have been there for all
and change human path before another child falls
the revelations I must have felt within myself,
the realization of what a man supposed to be
can you imagine walls so high
the sky would be nothing more than a single thin blue line
then cover that line,
THE END.

No More War !!

Cascading down
There are sounds evaporating into vision
It's a sound in my discomfort soul
That beats with a mission
And I feel like it shuts me in a prison

Say this war won't last
Say it will all just pass
Always the sound in my brain
Children can hear it louder then the rest

Blood on grass running down again
Screams on glass that sound
Dancing away the thought of Peace
Like the lights on a moving bomb
Sounds in my head seem to run
And again I feel a shiver
Thinking of the innocent dead
And the rumble on the earth
As the house of my neighbor
crumbles with their children to dirt

Say it won't last
Pray this war will pass
Always that sound in my brain
Its time to change the world of pain
Blood of our Brothers and sisters on the floor
Mothers crying for their dead children

as they close the casket door
Asking the lord

to forgive his soul

and begging her country

to STOP THE WAR!!

I let it all go

I got the pain forming in my bones from life
Who indeed took over my Thoughts
Understand I couldn't breathe
if she ever said she would leave
I would Get on my knees, till they Bleed
And beg for her for another night
See I don't know if you get it yet
I Just don't know
she’s like the lighter to my cigarette

Watch me smoke.
I never knew another human life
This I Didn't know
Who got the power to take over mine
so now I’m yours.
I love my Gangster Rap
She be in the shower singing "Thug Life cant last”
I'm on the block, where the G's hang
because all of my heroes

came from a street gang
This Crazy Life, I know a day will come
Me and You top notch, in our Brentwood Home

a Bentley parked by the side walk grass
she keep her body covered in Christian Deor
Plus she's ready to ride with me in hard times

Who can ask for more?
Me and my girlfriend
See I can never feel alone with you In my life
I'll give up everything I own to hold you right
Almost a shame

how I'm mesmerized with your touch
Such a shame your family hates us
your kisses make my lips quiver And that's real
And when you touch me my whole body shivers
And tell me, who could ever picture
That me and you would be together forever
I'm running My life not a day too long
you want me to come and prey
Why would I come? when I know my wrongs
I love the street life, But that love is a curse
And when I think about living without you
Nothing is worse
So I let it all go for you…..

Dear GOD...

I'm glad you came around today
I sure needed the help

I'm losing it but you're the same
without you I move at random

Abusing my ways to find the answers
and there's no Jesus here to explain

God take me higher
come take me high above our time

Save all of the good soul
from this jealous world of mine

First You justify, you're not afraid
and I won't feel like this again
You wait with me, because you know
This world of ours is lost in hope
there's so much more than what we have done
we took your gift and burn it down

take us higher off of the ground

come take us higher away from time.

Can You Hear Me?

They told me to run, but just how far
Can I go running from fear?
The hurt in my eyes always gives away to tear
The tension building slowly
Breaking the silence of the night
Can't you hear me screaming?
As I look for better days in the neon lights

There's no direction to my stare
No more flame burning anywhere
Quiet and I keep it to myself
Until the sun sets Then I unleash the beast
I hear a voice in the evening rain calling
Nothing will keep us in peace
No more lies and fear
There's no end to defeat
Can't look back, it's just a waste of time
Can't erase my dreams from my thoughts

Breaking the silence of the night
Through the streets of LA I'm screaming
Looking for life in the neon lights
Why don't you answer me?
Breaking the silence with my laughter
Can't you hear me?

Things Change

All eyes were staring
as I walked through the room.
Armed with my razor smile
cutting everyone to bone.
their voice fell useless
I screamed a quick "Hello."
Feeling the anger
I wonder if it showed

But that was Sometime Ago.
A memory vague and fading slow,
of somewhere I'd been trying to find me
A promise, a word and a voice
Hand on my Heart
I was given the choice
A rhythm to change
and decisions to make
that will keep me together.

I don't know if I can reach so high.
It's a long way to fall if I fail again
trying and holding my fate with a gaze.
Like a child, confused about life again.
what lies behind my eyes you could only guess.
That certain way I think apart from the rest.

Together through thick and thin
lose or win, I'll try till I get it right
Strange how the mind change
time and time again.
Things once important, now pale in comparison.

Silver Dream

In time of silver ash
Closed doors behind the living facts
A few basics of life come to mind
Although there is lost hope in a newborns eyes
The earth still Puts forth new life again,
Green grasses grow
And flowers lift their heads,
And over all the plain
The wonder spreads
Of life and joy
The ultimate taste
In other times there is this silver rain
brings with it
The butterflies silken wings
I tried one time
To find the way
To catch a rainbow cry,
But all I saw was the newborns eye
The trees put forth
New leaves to sing
In joy beneath the sky I breed
As down the roadway
Passing by some dream
Go singing in the plain
Asking me be free
With life and joy
In time of rain
When Spring
And life start again.

Thank You DAD

. . . . . . .

When I think of all of the things you do

the ways in which you care,
I’m filled with a sense of gratitude

and pride that’s always there.

I seldom take the time

to tell you how I feel
so let me tell you thank you

for the wisdom you impart.
And the nights you gave me lectures
Even the nights you yelled

Thank you for the love you give,
the kind words and every prayer.
Thank you dad for listening
and showing me that you care.

Thank you dad for everything,
you’re a man I can admire,
growing up I thought of you different
but now you’re the one that I look up to
for all ideas you inspire.

When I was just a little man
you bounced me on your knee
You will grow up to be a hero one fine day
just wait and see
Time went by very slowly
you were always there
You watched me learn to walk and talk
to learn to climb the stair
When birthdays came you smiled and sang
helped to blow out the candles

with your monster air
Thank you so very much Dad
sorry for all the gray hair.

Orange
The fruit

Being loved by my mother,
And carried with my family,
even when the bitter air strikes,
biting my face and bleeding my joy,
Dying I cry,
How far away will I fall?
Never felt so cold,
I reach for my mother but she was gone
as if an arm reach from the heavens
I felt my soul picked through the air
Snapping my limbs,
Dead on the ground,
Like a corpse I lay in his hand
As he gently lay me to the floor.

LIFE
Inspired by a friend

Look for the strength you know you can feel
Search for the truth you know that is real
Then reach for the place you know they can't steal
And say, I'm feeling good with my life

No point in letting life bring you down
Some say my words are hard
Why do you sound so sad?
There's always something bad, they say
Face up to trouble and stare it out.
I know I should be feeling good with life

No better place to start than with self
Get your head together then follow through
It's not what you're saying it's what you do
I know I'm feeling good with life

Don't fantasize how your life could be
Make all your dreams a reality
Then there is nothing that can bring you down
I know this, I’m trying it now

We've got to make it
All of us living together
Learning to share our lives
We've got to speak from the heart
Find a new way to start
That's something we've all got to realize
In our life

GIVE IT ALL AWAY

Swinging round in circles,
looking for the way,
Fleeing from the idea
when a smile wanted to stay.
My world is swirling round,
this time I know it well,
I used to think its life,
but now I know its hell.

Then I realize inside me,
I’ve had myself all wrong,
This time I know for certain,
I’ve never been that strong
The moment you remember,
those times you stop to think,

But with demons sitting at my feet ,
An angel’s come to ask me why I flee
And slowly I give up inside
To feel alive, I’d give it all away
for a night to fly.

Destructive words to make it so
but none of this you know
Another year, another week,
another set of summer sheets
Another ‘we should hang out again’
Another drink, another Friend

Make Believe

Your morning smile of torture

holds me in its grip
As I try to wake myself from my dream
I felt your body next to mine
you trace the taste of yesterday
the bruise upon my lip
you touch my eyes and hypnotize
and slip inside my heart
I wait for this forever
but we always fall apart
you want to hold me closer

and escape it all for once
you take the size of shadowed men
and punish me with your touch
this romance is sweeter now
now that we're alone

but I meet your eyes and then despise
all we call our own
I write my name in lipstick

on the mirror as I leave the door
to stay would be too dangerous

to break the make believe...

Blue Rain

When it rains I like to seat at home
And pour a couple rounds of Tea
Till the hurting and the heartache start to drown
I turn out the light I turn up the sounds
And I lock my door when it rains

I don't need whiskey to drown out the pain
Or some old umbrella to hold off the rain
Don't have to cross over a river of tears
All that I need is right here

Holding my dreams holds me together
When holding on gets just a little too hard
When this tight rope of life I travel
Gets tangled up in knots
It all Begins to unravel
as it rains on me, all night.

You know life's a run away track
And I'll take the ride knowing
Pain will be back
No fate's too uncertain no distance too far
As long as the rain pours I will try

Whenever I hold life tight
This crazy world of mine falls right in place
As I watch the rain tonight
I cant stop but think of love
On my side of bed , I’m sleeping like a baby
Dreams are dancing' in my head.

land of shame

Another day of thoughts
looking out my window staring
at the things that I can't see
I bet if you listen closely
You can hear a dying dream
we can thank the men of old
for this legacy of hate
somehow they have sold
this dream that does not bake
I’m wrapped up in the warmth
of an unforgiving game
I’m on vacation in the land of shame
when the pigs are flying
and it's freezing cold in hell
maybe we'll forgive the children
only time can tell
we'll be alone together
in a world of peace
we'll be alone together
in a place that doesn't feel like this
I can hear a dying dream
And its deep inside of me
in a place that doesn't feel
I’m stuck till eternity

The Lake

.

Used to go in to nature
Trapping love in the summer breeze
living slowly Gripping the sun with a rake
Now the pool in my heart is frozen
And I never did learn how to skate
But it doesn't matter anyway
I'm on the wrong side of the lake
Oh wont you listen to a man who cant dance
drifted swiftly in traffic jams
I buried all my treasure
There was nothing to take
She's frozen love, as she left me
Out of whose womb came the ice
And the sudden frost of my peace
came down like melted snow
The waters hold all the truth
And the face of the deep is lost
No it doesn't matter now
I'm on the wrong side of faith
I’m frozen love as she left me
Fish out of water, fish out of lake.

I'm FALLING UP

At a stoplight in the middle of the night,
Stuck in traffic and I wonder if I should stay
The right is history and to my left the choice is right
But this seems a little bit too hard to figure out
And all the questions come running through my mind
will I see this another way?
The simple truth is i'm falling,
and I don't want to drag her through the way

Then she says, "Sit in front of me, turn around so you can see,
I'm all you'd ever want, all you'd ever need"
as i gentley rest my head on her shoulder
and I Come back into her world,
"you know I'm always yours she whispers"
as i hold her like a child
And she makes so much sense
when she says "don't throw this away"

Its hard to know whats real when it all seems wrong
But I promise you I'll find whats going on
I just need to follow the sun
before I'll know if I'll see this another way
The simple truth is I'm falling,
and I dont want it this way.

My love, she treads so lightly,
floating in her flower dress
Even though her words cut deep
I can't deny the truth in them
On the phone she talks a lot and me,
I listen hopelessly,
As i day dream what it could all be
And then I decide to give another random thought,
To remind her of the first time we sang out
Oh you always understood me,
and all the questions seem to go away in your arms
will I see this another way?
The simple truth is I'm falling up.

That's Not How It Is

I woke up in bed last night

when something came upon me
I was lying there alone

but I’ve never felt so full

Something’s changed inside of me

feels like im drowning

How can I know just how I feel

when I cant even trust me

This no love thing is quickly growing old
This isolation booth I’m in is dark and turning cold
I used to steal breaths away with just one little kiss
Me and the ladies, we were so in love back then

but that’s not how it is

But I’d catch moonlight in a bottle

if I could drink a toast to happiness
Fill my room with roses and toss you into the floor
I’d write your name in candy kisses

from here to new york

I have tossed and turned and rolled it in my world
Not knowing all the questions

make the answers hard to find
I think I’ve covered everything

but still there’s something wrong

I used to read love like a book

but that’s not how it is
this life changes the rules

without notices of change.

CAN’T GIVE UP

I don’t know how to sleep,
I forgot how to eat
But I hail to the command
and i dance to live again
I took my only chance
I ran away with pain
and all along i was wrong
All I ever wanted is just to know what’s up
But when I try to fake it, I always fuck it up
now i try to write words
that readers can relate
without the purfanity
you wont know my hate
The basement is haunted, my heart palpitates
I’m worried about something,

my karma of the day
It should be easy,

but it’s hard to give it up
The way it used to be

was just not happening enough
Crocodile tears, six-packs of beer
with the loonley room
your thoughts disapear
Denying, undenying
But no one knows I’m here

Forget Me Not

Another night you wait
You leave the light on at your door
You cross your heart across the bedroom floor
And through the window to your world
You can feel me holding you close on a chilly night
And you know I'm waiting
You taste the words of my soul

When our eyes connect, we both know what this is
I will be your keeper and You possess the key
Forget me not, Cause you belong to me
I will be your shadow When you walk away
I will be there when you cant find the way.

A thousand life times long ago
I need the promise she wont let go
And so I come for you tonight
And we live again
Before we lose each other words
I climb a stairway to the open sky
I will be a frozen dream When you walk away
I will follow you Until my dying day

When I touch you
You will be touched by love
I climb the stairway to your world
You can feel me there
And you know I'm waiting

Happy Days in LOVE

Happiness comes when most unexpected
When nothing and no one seems true
So many promises broken
But I feel certain of you
Certain as night and day
You keep my ambitions alive
Though you don't have to stay
If you go I can never survive

The perfect love

is in my mind
i thought it will probably never exist
But you are as close as it gets

and I won't resist
The perfect love
Has never proven to be
But you are as close as it gets

when you're close to me

Out on our own in a loonley world
We chase any dream, any star
Nothing can harm us, we are immortal together
Innocent fools cant take us apart
Sometimes our confidence dies
But I won't mind at all
I see my dreams coming true in your eyes .

whisper to me

.

Look at me twice with your devil eyes
Promise me everything except a blue night
Shudder like ice in cut crystal glass
Melt in snow with crazy past
And whisper, whisper death..

Mysterious to a lie with lingering breath
Walking fingers sleep while the hungry is left
Phone chimes ringing like an empty voice
A distant smile lost, her lips are soft and moist
With whispers, whispers love..

And whisper in a rhythm your lies
Keep making me fly
Hurt me with the promise
Whisper like cold winds in summer nights
Save heaven for lovers, leave me alone
With your whispers, whispers im gone.

Lord Give Me A Sign

lord give me a sign
i really need to talk to you lord
cause the last time we talked
the walk has been hard
and i no u havent left me
but i feel like im alone
im a big boy now
but im still not grown
and im still goin threw it
pain and the hurt
soakin up trouble like rain in the dirt
and i no i can't stop the rain
but just to mention im going to save your pain
in the name of god
devil i rebuke you
for what i go threw
and trying to make me do what i used to
but all that stops right here
as long as the lord in my life
i will have no fear
i will know no pain from the light to the dark
i willl show no shame spit it right from the heart
cause its right from the start
you held me down
and there is nothing they can tell me now
please, show me something
im tired of talking to myself
cryin about life it aint nothing
would you either be the one mad
cause the other one hunting
traped in your arm ma
waitign for the lord
im hunting with the word that
cuts like a sword
the spoken word the stronger
then they stand
he carrys the whole world in his stronger hand
you never let us down
i no u hear with us now

i no u still with us now
keep it real with us now
i wanna feel, show me how Please
let me take your hand
guide me, i walk slow, stay right beside me, the devils trying to find me
hide me,hold up, i take that back, protect me and then flip the get the fuck back
life or death live or die
i will never live a lie
im going to live because i try
i wont quit untill i die
im gonna make it, wrong or right

make it threw the darkest night
when the morning comes u'll see

i survived another night

In Spite of All the Danger

~~~

In spite of all the danger,

in spite of all that may be

I'll do anything for you,

anything you want me to If you'll be true to me

In spite of all the heartache,

that you may cause me

I'll do anything for you,

anything you want me to

If you'll be true to me

I'll look after you like

I've never done before

I'll keep all the others

from knockin' at your door

In spite of all the danger,

in spite of all that may be

I'll do anything for you,

anything you want me to If you'll be true to me

In spite of all the heartache,

that you may cause me

I'll do anything for you,

anything you want me

juse promise you will be true to me.

ONLY one on EARTH

So who really shaped this planet
with all the human benefit
what gave us the power
to consume her desire
times are changed with all the changes
and nothing seems to be the same
an old man still gets older
and the young lost again
how do you loose control
at things you can not see
what makes you so much better
to deterioate the ground
who said you are
the only one on earth..

MY FEAR

What name do you stand for

that you think i should be in pain?

what life do you live in

if this life is not worth the tears?

As the shadow of the night

holds all the promises deep

i am left wondering

was it me that got defeat

like a lost child

in the mist of the city

i hide between the cracks of glory

as a whisper is heard miles away

Silence never came again

i ask you again he said

what world you stand for?

i looked up and i saw a man speaking to me

as i stood up i said i stand to be free

what dream is this out of

where no one listens but laughs

what nightmare have i got myself

not knowing it was my death

.

I cant take the amount of pressure i put on myself
it does not have to be this way
the struggle between time and pain
is inversely proportional
to happiness and comfort
i no longer hold in my thoughts the delusions
the idealic symbolism of society
that so many have learned to adapt
and some have mastered it to success
i soley realy on my lack of trust for humanity
and hold no one inocent
i dont think complaining would help
no one listens anyway!!

Standard Guarantee

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Looking for Love and Respect
prove me im still wrong
oh yes..
standard guarantee
dont let them Bring you down
never let them take over
never let them cut it down
dont let them chop your dreams
whats yours will always be

as long as we are all Free.

Dont ask me to be strong

.

smell some hue on you
never knew if i could brake through
tragic is the life filled with standards
no one can see what i am afraid of
no one knows the truth
just walking on the street
and i know you will be gone
and i know i wont be strong
without you holding my arm

and shine will shine for you
wishing i was the sun

From this day i will moan
and when the moon comes

you wish i never left
and every day it gets more
so welcome to my pain
and i know i wont be strong
everything inside is gone
and i know you will be gone
dont ask me to be strong

paranoia striks deep
in to yur life it will creep
starts when you always afraid
step out of line
they will come take you any way
stop waht taht sound
everyopne lokk around
what going down

Back AgAIN

I was a highway man
around the culture road i rode
had an angel by my side
soldiers shared their blood with my blade
on the spring of 2005
but im still alive
i was a sailor
i was born to a broken home
in the sea i found life
i sailed the score of mexico
and when the water went crazy

they said i got killed in the sea
but im still living here
i always be around
i fly a star ship
across the universe i fly'

and when i reach the other side
i find a place to rest my spirit
perhaps i might be a highway man again
or i might be just a drop of rain
but i will be back again

change it up

surfs up and surf the platter
no i said love lasts forever
jesus come to me
just to be good
nights, drums and i hear the beat
as i shake my body
i feel the pain all around
watch the children
how can i dance like i dont care
i find myself involved
in all the peoples business
and thoughts are hard
when the family begs
stand strong
watching them shake your hand
why is the mother kissing my hand
beg for food not my world
change it people.. change it!!

the day

When the day is done
when the night has come
some get by and some get old
just to show how life is
when night is cold
when the birds fly
god knows i try
to call one my own.
when the game has been found
newspaper blown through the court
when the part is through
seem so sad for you
didnt do the things you meant to do
now there is no time
now that the day is done
the longer you wait
your smile will be gone

they asked an old educator

highly regarded diplomatic man..

what has been the greatest accomplishment of your life?

the old man looked around as if

to hide his words

he whispher something

but no one could make a word

next they asked him.

what has been your weakness?

the old man looked at the floor

turned around and looked at the sky

and didnt say a word

the educator was hard to follow

almost a few people in one

they asked him one last question

at which he replied

I'm Done....

the interview was over

the old man came to the reporter

he said in a very clear voice

" sometimes age is not an indication

of who you are..

sometimes power is hidden in things you cant buy..

it is true that i am old

and rich and successful

otherwise why would you ask about me

but my greatest accomplishment

were few words..

The night has brought too many thoughts in my mind

such a hard day it was for some

i wonder if the silent ghost of the night

are aware of the time

the boogie man is no comparison to a bomb

the pain of glory

between wealth and power

has forever haunted our spirit on earth

for we no longer understand peace

the television gives me my views

as i watch children dying

as i watch mothers scream

on their dead husband

as i watch trains exlpode

as i watch buses exlpode

as i watch cities on fire

i must think there is better life then this

the moments of glory for the life time trauma

no one is guilty but the inocent

free the spirit of care

and spread the word of peace

i wish the silent nights would be

at the door of every child

i thought we were better then

killing our own kind

i wish the jungle of anger would stop

and all the lifes that are affected

allowed to heal

i thought from all this struggle

we learned from our past

i watch the news

i cant seem to feel the pain

the anger rise and fall

the dead soul in hell

lost from hope of death

they say a child that dies in a mothers womb

from a bullet that came throw the walls

its becaue the child did not want to enter this world

they say poetry is supposed to rhyme

but no one said im a poet

as i write these words

so goes my hope

and i still ask for Peace

The moment i saw her

i couldnt think of anything better to say

other then " dont you think we make a cute couple? "

for i gave chance no hope

i gave luck no time

i made sure i get her

i knew from the heart

she replied, i said yes

we set a date we click well

months have passed and our love has grown

deeper then the fountain of hope

with her i feel the breeze of life

the hard times seem not so hard

she gives me confidents

makes me realize who iam

for that i owe her friendhip to the end

she is my companion

A friend of a poet

she is the intellectual

the lover, you know it

when i walk by her side

i feel like a man

i want to scream" she is mine!! "

but its well understood

nobody can sepearate us

we were meant for good

Get out

.

.

As i drove myself in the heat of night

darkness was at full blast

yet traffic was as if it was two in the afternoon

whats going on, i thought

where is the moments that you spend with family

who are these people

i ask

thinking as i seat in trafffic

wondring why i left home

so complicated things can get

when you have to find a way

its not as easy as said

sometimes

finding love wont be enough

and yet another night

and the traffic gets worse

i have to get out of this place.

The sudden slam of the door

left a cold thought in my head

as i climb the stairs to my castle

i check by the village to see if i have bills

never fails, there all the time

broke to the box that i escape to rest

night will go so fast

wehn lack of sleep hurts your thouhgs

the anxious moment in the morning

i have a few more minutes

and the next thoughts the alarm goes off

what changed my ways

it was love.............